06 November 2009


korang ni memang buat lawak la weh..
gelak-gelak aku dengar..
hate me?
i dun give a damn.. =)

05 November 2009

If we ever...

I've been fragile for a long time
A big old hole inside my heart
And I was searching through the valley
Stumbled on love in the dark

Was afraid to try but afraid to never know
What it feels like to be loved
Had a hill to climb
but the places we could go
Oh, I gotta know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind know, would the pain go, oh
So if we ever, fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I was empty it was all gone
The birds would sing but made no sound
Till I met you, found I was all wrong
You picked me up right off the ground

Was afraid to try, and afraid i'd fall again
crashing down from the sky, you know
Had a hill to climb, but with you I my heart will mend
That's the one thing, we all wanna know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind blow, would the pain go, oh
So if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I just wanna know, I just wanna know
tell me tell me so, baby I just wanna know
(repeat x3)

So if we ever fell in love
would the wind know, would the pain go, oh
(yeah) so if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

So if we ever fell in love
oh, I wanna know what it feels like to be loved

29 October 2009

Quarter life crisis?

i spoken to one of my friends bout my feelings and what im going through now and he told me im having the quarter life crisis..i only heard bout the mid life crisis..so i google bout it a lil bit and this is wut i found..its so true..

The Quarter-Life Crisis
by unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

p/s: so wut do u think? when oh when this crisis will be over? huhu

23 October 2009

For Someone..

21 October 2009

im bored

I'm bored to death
Can that be even true
Well, I am still alive
I need something to do

I gotta find some interest
But I don't know what
I can't think of anything
My mind's door is shut

huhu ;p

13 October 2009

13 October 2009

Love Story theme song - piano version

Romance de Amor - piano version

this 2 songs really beautiful..i can cry listening to them..they really touch my heart..hope u guys enjoy it..

12 October 2009

is it because of my PMS?

hmm i dunno why..
suddenly i feel so stress and feel like crying..
is it because my pms is coming?
i hate this feeling..

i wanna run away from all this..
run away from all the problems..
from all the people..
i juz wanna be in a place where i can be alone..
yeah..i noe..i am all alone now..
i wanna be somewhere or anywhere else but not here..

i juz wanna be in a place like an island perhaps..
a beach or some place quite..
quite from all the noise..
where there will be only me..white sandy beach..
the sound of the waves..the moon and the stars..
with the accompany of a few loved ones wud be great..

i noe i am strong..
but the loneliness and the emptiness inside me is killing me slowly..
dear god..if u can hear me..
please send me someone from above who can love me as i am..
someone who will love me like i love him/her..
someone who can care for me like i care for him/her..
someone who understand me better than anyone else..
someone who will never judge me but will guide me thru all the way..
someone who will stand beside me and never put me aside..
someone who will love me eternally..

i noe it's easier said than done..
'i will always be there for you'
'you always have me'
i heard that a lot..
i noe i have a great circle of families..frens and a few close frens..
i noe u guys will always try to be there for me..
and i appreciate that..thank you..
but yeah..u see me smiling and laughing..
talking and giggling..
singing and dancing..
flirting and enjoying my life..
but do u noe deep down inside of me?
i think no one will ever noe..

i am not the type of girl who loves to tell anyone bout how i feel..
i am not the type of girl who loves to share..
i am exactly not the type of girl who u think i am..
so if u really think u noe me..
u better think twice..

i think its enuff for tonite..
i can go on babbling all nite long..
to all my families and friends..
i love you and thank you again..
only Allah will repay you..

In the making of another memory

dear friends,
how's your life?
it's been a while since I heard you laughed,
I, sometimes, dream of us so clearly,
in this making of 'memory'

our past days surely are beautiful,
the things keep our memory books so full.
the things we left unchanged are so many,
in this making of 'memory'

dear friends,
where have you been?
our day, our time,
do you still have that memory?
we live our lives now, differently.
we are, but for the making of another 'memory'



Alone I drift away,
Alone I walk a thousand miles,
Alone I fall asleep,
Alone I stare at the sky,
Alone I sit under a tree,
Alone I cry.

Alone I dream of you,
Alone I hope and pray,
to God who is oh so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way.

Alone I drift away,
Alone I live today,
and alone I'll die someday.


Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks

I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

08 October 2009


my mind seems been running out of words nowadays..
so im using songs and lyrics to express my feelings..
hope u guys understand it..
i will write something when my brain is fully functioning..
just for the info..



Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I�ve been given.

I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don�t understand.

I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
�cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I don�t wanna die,
But I ain�t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I�m preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death,
That�s why I keep on running.
Before I�ve arrived, I can see myself coming.

I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
�cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

And I need to feel, real love
And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in,
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after
There�s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it�s a real big place.


Come and hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living,
Not sure I understand,
This role I�ve been given

Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.

06 October 2009


Saturday, stepping into the club
The music made me wanna tell the DJ, turn it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop movin' to the sound

But, I can tell that you're watching me
And your probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?

Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do?
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun, I'm gonna live my life
(But not the way that you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures, don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to the beat like

I gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just need a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?

Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do?
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down?
I'm only having fun, I'm gonna live my life
(But not the way that you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind
(My mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time
(Good time)

I'm tired of rumors, rumors
Followed, followed, followed, followed, followed, followed
What they?
(Followed me?)
Why can't they, they, they, they, they
They let me live?
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

p/s:to all the haters out there..hahahaha

Live like you're dying

One of these days youll be
under the covers youll be
under the table and youll realize
all of your days are numbered;
all of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.
So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for more.
no no

Chorus 1:
Take every moment; you know that you own them.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

Give me a reason
to fight the feeling
that theres nothing here for me.
Cause none of its easy,
I know it wasnt meant to be.
I know its all up to me x2.
So what am I gonna do with my time?

Chorus 2:
Ill take every moment, I know that I own them.
Its all up to you to do whatever you choose.

Chorus 3:
Live like youre dying and never stop trying.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

All of the moments you didnt notice;
gone in the blink of an eye.
All of the feelings you couldnt feel
no matter how you try.
oh oh

p/s:love the song..live your life to the fullest or 1 day you might regret and think how u wish u wud have done dat thing... =)

29 September 2009

Doesn't mean anything..

Used to dream bout being a millionaire, without a care
But if I'm seeing my dreams and you aren't there
Cause it's over, that just won't be fair, darling
Rather be a poor woman living on the street, no food to eat
Cause I don't want no pie if I have to cry
Cause it's over when you say goodbye

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

Now I see myself through different eyes, it's no surprise
Being alone would make you realize
When it's over, all in love is fair
I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

I know I push you away
What can I do that will say how I love
Take these material things
They don't mean nothing
It's you that I want

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone
(I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda)

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

p/s : i love da way he sings this song..makes me wanna cry..huhu

why u'r still single?

28 September 2009

Lovin' it

i always cut my hair short but last friday
i trimmed my hair and rebond it...
my hair is quite long now..
trying something new..

check out my new pic at my fb.. =)

18 September 2009

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri..semoga aidilfitri kali ini lebih baik dr yg sebelumnya..harap diampunkan segala salah dan silap..kita manusia tidak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan..
berhati-hati ketika memandu..ingatlah family tersayang... =)

16 September 2009

16 September 2009


you might give me all the happiness in this world..
in this life..


can you give me final peace in the end?

15 September 2009

15 September 2009

well my dad already been discharge from da hospital last saturday..
he's getting better..thank you all..

im deleting some people who used to be my friends
but now so called my haters from my facebook..
eventhough u guys really make me famous
and i appreciate it very much..
but i dun need u in my life..
thanks for all the hardwork dat u've done to make me famous..
all the thinking and doing things..
thanks..only Allah will repay u.. =)

11 September 2009

11 September 2009

ayah semakin sembuh..alhamdullilah..thx to all my friends and families for da supports and prayers..walaupun ayah nampak uzur dan semakin kurus tp keadaannya dah bertambah baik..semalam ayah dah boleh minum air dan sudah mula membuang air besar..arini dia sudah boleh makan..cuma dari semalam ayah mcm kna diarrhea..mungkin sbb ubat yg diberikan..lgpun cuaca di bp mmg panas betul..

actually ayah kna operate mlm isnin hari tu tp mama n ayah xnk bgtau aku sbb xnk aku drive sorg2 mlm..kesian mama kne jaga and tgu ayah operate sorg2..msti die sedih and rsa tak tertanggung..hmm terharu aku sbb time2 ayah saket cmtu pn still lg sempat pkir psal aku..sbnrnya ayah kna gastrik..gas tu dah burst up so kna operate takleh tgu lg..kata mama ayah msuk bilik operation around 1am dan keluar dalam 5am cmtu..

hari slasa tu aku smpai hosp around 9am something..aku msuk2 wad ayah baru je sedar..sedih aku tgk keadaan ayah..jarum bercucuk sana cni..kna pkai neb..kne tebuk lubang kat tepi pinggang utk kluarkn darah kotor..and de tube dimsukkn kt idung dia tuk keluarkan lendir2 maybe dari paru2..ayah kna operate kat perut..panjang juga kat tengah2 dari area bwh dada smpai la kt pusat..aku x pnah nmpk ayah kurus and saket cmni..sblm ni ayah nmpk sehat je bdn pn tough..takda la nmpk cm org umur 57 thn..tp skrg ayah nmpk uzur..sdey je aku rsa..aku tgk mata mama merah je maybe tahan nangis..aku pn tahan je air mata aku..xnak la nmpk aku nangis nnt mama msti lg sdey..i got to be strong for her..

aku pun tak sangka jaga orang sakit penat cmni..keje aku ape lg jadi driver laa..bawa and anta mama ke hospital..beli barang2 keperluan ayah..umah..mkn utk berbuka dan sebagainya..ganti mama jaga ayah bler mama blk umah..penat betul..dgn cuaca kat bp yg btul2 pnas..migrain kepala aku dibuatnya..tidur pn x ckup..badan kaki sume rsa saket2 and lemah..maklum lah bulan puasa..time buka jela bley recharge tenaga..

hari ahad aku akn blik kl semula..hopefully before that ayah dah klua hospital..takda la aku risau sgt coz jiran2 ada..ari jumaat depan bru aku blk bp semula..

ayah..semoga cepat sembuh..nanti bleh klua hospital..tak lama lg dh boleh minum and makan cm biasa..mesti ayah rasa nk mkn mcm2 kan..huhu nurul sentiasa doakan agar ayah cepat sembuh and tak saket2 lg.. =)

special thx to my cousin rose..my friends izzah..che'are..eliya..nina..min and syafiq for always trying to be there for me when i need someone..thx for the support..thx sbb slalu tnya bout my dad..i cant thx u guys enuff..all i can say is i LOVE u guys and i will try my best to be there for u one day when u need someone or me..thx again.. =)

08 September 2009

Ayah..semoga cepat sembuh..

around 5 something dpt call from mama ckp ayah masuk hospital emergency room..i was shocked..all i can asked was "why?" mama bitau ayah balik kerja then dia start sakit perut..muntah2 smpai badan lemah giler and sampai die ckp die mmg btul2 dah tak tahan sakit..my neighbour pak enal tlg antakan ayah n mama to the hospital..then aku bitau mama once doktor dh bitau wuts wrong with him tell me..aku try balik bp..

aku xtau nk watpe aku trus call tasha..tanye if aku nk blk BP bleh atau tak die teman aku..she said okay juz tell her wut time..aku ajak die coz aku tau skrg ni cuma die je kwn aku yg tak study and still not working and i thot she was my best + close fren..

so i wait n wait n wait till 6pm something still no words from mama..i called her..she said doktor bru lpas x-ray and he still in the ER..aku rasa tak sedap hati..aku trus call tasha bitau after buka gerak terus coz ayah aku still lg dlm ER...die ckp okay..rite now die kat saloon after buka she'll sms me..

aku risau sgt coz ayah tak pernah saket smpai cmni..die tak pernah masuk hospital..aku takut aku nangis je bila tgk die esok dgn jarum bercucuk sana sini..aku tak smpai hati..kalau boleh biar aku gnti tmpt die..bia aku yg saket..aku syg ayah dgn mama sgt2..smpai aku doa bia tuhan cabut dlu nyawa aku dari dorang..aku tak sanggup hilang dorang..they're my EVERYTHING..

nearly 8 tasha sms bitau die baru nk makan..kedai sume full...aku ckp okay but tlg cpat sket..pjalanan jauh bknnye sekejap..aku xnk smpai mlm2 sgt..she said okay..nearly 9pm die sms aku ckp dah settle makan lg 10mins aku leh gerak pegi rumah die..aku pn gerak la pegi umah die..bila aku dah sampai kat OU..dah nak sampai kat umah die baru die bitau aku yg bapak die tak bagi die teman aku..im like SO FUCKING MAD MANNN!! aku dah nak smpai umah kau baru kau nk bitau aku?? aku tunggu kau dr ptg tadi smate2 sbb kau ckp kau bley teman aku..kalau tak baik aku gerak balik BP sorg2 ptg tadi je..

and die bley igt yg ayah aku okay je?? which part of 'BAPAK AKU MASUK ER' yang kau x phm?? you always take things easy and now my patience already reached the limit..sbb kali ni dh melibatkn parent aku..kalau apa2 jdi kt ayah aku cmna??

aku call mama..tanya cmna..suara mama sedih giler coz die igtkn aku dh sampai kt bp and bley teman die...aku rasa cm nk nangis je coz tak dpt teman die kt hospital..kesian kat mama sape nk tlg die apa2? if die nak balik umah ke ape..mama xtau drive..die sorg2 je..aku rasa bersalah and sedih giler coz im da only one they got and i cant be there when they need me the most..kau ampunilah dosaku ini ya Allah.. ='(

aku bitau mama kalau die nak aku sgup balik mlm ni gak walaupun sorg..die ckp xpela..kau balik esok pagi je..nak wat cmna..suara die sedih je..menitis air mata aku time tu jugak...tp aku diam je xnk bagi mama dengar..aku nekad lepas sahur aku balik BP..

after that aku terus pegi jumpa min, hilal and daus kat castle..aku lepak dgn dorg jap..story kat dorg..thx korang sbb sudi dgr aku membebel2 td..thx a lot..thx jugak tuk izzah..che'are..kwn2 lain kat FB and my cousins...thx for all the prayers..hopefully everything turn out juz fine..insyaAllah...

tasha i dun hold any grudge towards u..but try to put urself in my shoe..then tell me how u feel..

05 September 2009

Thank you..

im happy with my life now..i really am..
thx to all my friends especially my besties..
u know who u are rite?
u guys really make my day..
i cant thank u guys enuff..huhu
now i can go to sleep and wake up da next day with a smile on my face..
i LOVE u guys..i really do...
and i MISS u guys A LOT..
cant wait to hang out together again..
we really had a great time dun we?
huhu..so cpat2 dtg kL okay??

01 September 2009

1st September 2009

a new month..
hope a new life a new beginning for me..
last month is quite a shitty month for me..


27 August 2009

What should i do?

I miss him so much..
I really do..
I still love him with all my heart even after what he did to me..
Am i stupid?
I really don't know what i should do..

I tried to forget him..
I tried to forget all the memories..
But it's getting harder and harder to forget..
I dreamed about him and us almost every night..

People told me time heals everything..
But how much longer i have to suffer?
How much longer i need to feel this pain?
My heart aches everytime i think about him...
My heart aches everytime i see him..

I try very hard not to cry..
Eventhough i feel like i really need a shoulder to cry on..
I try to keep myself strong..
I try very hard to move on and to hold on..
I try very hard to mend all the broken pieces of my heart..
And im trying very hard to keep myself together..

I miss the times we spent together..
I miss the moments we had together..
I miss the fights and all the arguments..
I miss the words he used to call me..
I miss the way he used to touch me..
I miss the way he used to hold me..
I miss the way he used to hug me..
I miss the way he used to kiss me..
I miss the way he used to love me..
I miss everything, every single thing about him..

If you ever..ever read this..trust me
I love you and only you..
There's no one else in my heart except you..
I really dont know what else to do to make you believe me..
But believe me you are my one and only..

26 August 2009

Broken Hearted Girl

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

tasha asked me to hear this song..so i listened to it on Youtube..this song really makes me wanna cry..the video clips the lyrics the melody..everything..i really hope dat i can spread my wings and fly away..away with him..but i noe it wont be happenning..because i am a broken hearted girl..and no one..no one will noe or understand what im feeling.. ='(

23 August 2009

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat..semoga perjalanan selama sebulan ini membawa seribu rahmat dan kenikmatan dan menjadikan kita seorang mukmin yang lebih baik..

p/s: sempena bulan ramadhan ni..aku dah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri and i already promise my mum..i wanna stop from doing all the bad things dat ive done before..aku nk berhenti daripada buat semua perbuatan2 yang tak elok yang aku dh buat dulu..semoga Allah memperkenankan permintaan aku ni.. =)

16 August 2009

Giving up? Absolutely NO

“Pain is Temporary, Failure is Forever. A marathon is only 5 hours; the glory in completing it is more than 50 years. A Final Year Project is only 6 months; the portfolio is worth more than 60 years. A pregnancy is only 9 months; the lifespan of a life is 90 years. So if you’re in the midst of something painful now, it is just temporary. Giving up is forever.”

i got diz from my cousin's blog..everytime i feel like giving up..i read this..it keeps me motivated..this is really the hardest time for me..i almost give up but i know i gotta move on and keep myself strong..im a strong girl mentally..phisically and emotionally..i know that but
sometimes i just forgot bout it when emotions control me..this is my life im the one who controls it..life is real life is not a fairytale..things happen..only this time i didnt prepare for it..but in the future i know 1 thing for sure nothing else can hurt me..if it doesnt kill u..it makes u stronger..

10 August 2009

Tak tau la aku..

hmm..xtau la pe nk jd dgn aku ni..
aku ponteng keje ikut suke ati aku..
mls nk keje..
selera mkn xde..
asik xde mood je..
argh!! aku serabut..
bler bnda ni nk settle ni??
slagi x settle slagi tula aku cmni..
badan pn dah makin kurus..
dh la aku ni mmg kurus..
bler cmni makin bertambah2 aku kurus..
aku dh xtau nk watpe dh..
smpai bler aku nk cmni??
smpai bler aku kene tunggu??

04 August 2009



14 July 2009

Merindukanmu - d'Masiv

Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Back to reff ~~

09 July 2009

I miss you..

Time passes n passes n im still like this
wanting u in my arms not being able to have you
n i look for an exit to not look like this
Oh that far from me, your love is for me
n i cry n cry of knowing you are not here
with my lips, i want to kiss you
n i try n try to not feel like this
but its bad to know that you dont love me anymore

Look, how i am suffering
im burning from inside, to feel your love
don t do that to me, u know i love you
with all my heart

yeah i love you n i miss you, i want to see you next to me
huggin, holdin hands n be next to you
but my concious kills me of knowin you are not here
o baby why you gotta be doing this to me
it hurts me so much to know that you are not for me anymore
n that sweet lil body i shared with you
it hurts me so much to know that you are not for me anymore
i miss you
oh love (oh love) how it hurts me
to be without you
u dont love me

Look,(oh look) how i am suffering(ohh)
im burning from inside(n from inside), to feel your love(to feel your love)
don t do that to me, u know i love you(oh i love you)
with all my heart
Listen "Xtreme te extrano...."


god..i miss him so much..when this feeling will fade away..the pain is unspeakable and unbearable..eventhough it was my fault but i never meant to hurt anybody..im sorry..im really sorry..i know im selfish..i always put myself first before anyone..im trying hard to change all my bad attitude and im regret for all the mistakes and bad things i've done but maybe it's too late for my apology now..but from the bottom of my heart..im really really really sorry.. ='(

i juz want u to know that my days and my life will never be the same without you..when u walked out of my life i felt like half of me was gone too..it broke my heart to see your disappointed and frustrated face when you knew bout all the lies i made and it broke my heart worst and burst me into tears when i know and i can imagine how u feel and how hard you are trying to go through this hard time alone..

im trying hard to holding on and to move on..im trying to ignore my own feelings and trying to keep myself busy..im trying hard not to shed a tear coz i know it's worthless..it was my fault after all..

06 July 2009

Before i take that final breath...

Before I Go

When My Life Has Reached Its
Very End And I Take That Final Breath
I Want To Know I’ve Left Behind,
Some Good Before My Death.

I Hope That In My Final Hour
In All Honesty I Can Say
That Somewhere In My Lifetime
I Have Brightened Someone’s Day.

That Maybe I Have Brought A Smile
To Someone Else’s Face
And Made One Moment A Little Sweeter
While They Dwelled Here In This Place.

Lord , Please Be My Reminder
And Whisper Softly In My Ear
To Be A Giver , Not A Taker
In The Years I Have Left Here.

Give To Me The Strength I Need
Open Up My Mind And My Soul
That I Might Show Sincere Compassion
And Love To Others Before I Go.

For If Not A Heart Be Touched By Me
And Not A Smile Was Left Behind
Then The Life That I am Blessed With
Will Have Been A Waste Of Time.

With All My Heart I Truly Hope
To Leave Something Here On Earth
That Touched Another, Made Them Smile
And Gave To My Life… Worth

Source : click here

If i wrote a note to God..

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I’d ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

If I wrote a note to God

29 June 2009


This pain fills me
this pain of emptiness
a pain that doesn't go away
a pain of longing for
what I don't have
having what I don't want
a pain of the past
and also the future
a pain that nobody cares I have
a pain that I have every day
this pain fills me
from the soles of my feet
to the top of my head
I am filled
my soul is dim
the pain is a killer
it wants to take over
I fight
for what it is worth
I fight this pain
I just want this burden
to be gone
so I may be free
I just want this pain
that fills me

a LONG weekend..

well my last weekend is not da best weekend in my life..i could probably say da worst weekend for the year..i dun wanna say bout it or remember it..i juz wanna go wit da flow..i didnt eat anything yesterday..i felt hungry but i dun hav da appetite to eat..i've been crying all nite long till my eyes swell..i cant sleep tight coz of migrain..it was a perfect nite 4 me..isnt it? whatever..i dun have the mood to type or say anything anymore..daaa

26 June 2009

Michael Jackson aka Mikaeel dies at age 50..

his exclusive last photo..

OMG..i juz cant believe wut i heard..he dies at 2.26pm LA time..when i heard it i was like in shock..i cant say a thing..this is juz too surreal for me..i heard bout his comeback concert in london on 13th july 2009..all the tix are sold out already..eventho im not a big fan of him but i adore him..i listened to his songs since im a kid..i think i cant believe it coz i didnt hear any news bout him getting sick then suddenly his dead? wut?? i hope he died as a muslim as we all noe he converted to islam in 2008..may Allah bless and will always be with him..rest in peace MJ aka Mikaeel..u are truly a legend..u will always stays in our heart and will always be missed..

here is one of his song which is my all time favorite..

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

25 June 2009

New update..

well things are much better now only that i dunno wuts wrong wit me..im havin my flu every single day and i dunno y..i dun eat seafoods..i already cleaned up my room..so im tired of thinking why..maybe coz of the weather..sometimes hot sometimes cold..sometimes shiny sometimes rainy..when is this gonna end? i feel like tearing up my nose..please god help me eventho i noe im not a gud girl..i just cant stand having my flu every single day..*finger crossed*

akon concert is just around the corner..2nd july next thursday..i dunno whether i shud go or not..im really fuckin excited when i knew bout it..but now the feeling is slowly fading..maybe because there's a lot of obstacles preventing me from going..but who knows suddenly the excitement feeling arousing again..i might go.. =)

12 June 2009

Betrayed and lied..

finally im going back to my hometown today..yeay!! it's been a few weeks or a month maybe since my last footsteps in BP..im going back at 6.30pm..BP wait 4 me!! =)

i was so happy for the last few days but it ended yesterday..wanna noe why? i juz found out dat some person dat i trust my life with betrayed and lied to me..it's not a big deal actually but i juz cant accept it..i juz hate liars..juz tell me da truth whether it will hurt me or not than i get to noe by myself and it will hurt me more..dun u get it??

to someone : maybe u can accept me back when i lied to u but i was frank to u before u found out bout it..doesnt it hurt u more if u found out from someone else or by urself? answer me please..

and the best part was..i found out about it from someone else who thought i knew bout it but obviously i didnt..heh..and u still kept ur mouth shut and acted like u dun noe a shit bout it rite?? thx a lot! i trusted u and i told u da biggest secret of my life and yet diz is wut u did to me?? how am i suppose to trust u anymore??

im sory for evry single nasty words i said to u..but i juz cant accept people dat i love and trust my life with betrayed and lied to me..i juz cant..diz is da way i am whether u like it or not..

IF..if we ever get back together and be friends again..i wont trust u like i trusted u before..u can do whatever u like..hangout with your beloved friends wherever u want just dun..dun tell me anything..i dun wanna noe a damn shit bout it anymore..


08 June 2009


sakit badan..

sakit belakang..

sakit perut..

sakit kepala..

nak baring.... =(

Please Take Me There.. =)


I know a place that we can go to
A place where no one knows you
They won't know who we are
I know a place that we can run to
And do those things we want to
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there

I know a place that we've forgotten
A place we won't get caught in
They won't know who we are (they won't know, won't know)
I know a place where we can hide out
And turn our hearts inside out
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there

I know a place we'll be together
And stay this young forever
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there

We can get away to a better place if you let me take you there
We can go there now cause every second counts
Girl just let me take you there
Take you there

p/s: i just love this song from plain white t's and really hope dat someone can take me 'there'.. =)

05 June 2009

Im Sick... =(

feeling sick..my body temperature seems to climb up and down for a few days now..
i dunno why..i took my medication but still feels da same..hurmm...
im feeling lightheaded..nausea..flu...arghh..
no mood for everything or anything..
just wanna lie down n rest... =(

26 May 2009

I Love You...

I love you enough to fight for you,
Compromise for you, and sacrifice
Myself for you if need be.

Enough to miss you incredibly when
We’re apart, no matter what length
Of time it’s for and regardless of
the distance.

Enough to believe in our relationship,
To stand by it through the worse
Of times, to have faith in our
Strength as couple, and to never
Give up on us.

Enough to spend the rest of my life
With you, be here for you when you
Need or want me, and never, ever
Want to leave you or live without you

I love you this much.

Cant Yet Accept

I look at my reflection in the mirror
And I can see her laughing through her tears
All I can fake is one more smile
Underneath I am still in denial
I thought missing you was only for a day
I thought needing you would go away

Why do I see you in everything I do
Why does the sunshine remind me of you
Sometimes in my heart or when I hear your name
I think of the day I lost you, there's still so much pain
Things you said to me, I will never, ever forget.
Words like "love", "meant to be" just words, not heaven sent.

You always took my breath away
I can't believe you didn't stay
I understand you did what you had to do
But it seemed too soon for us to be through
Then the dreaded day when I made the wrong choice
I still can't fathom the tone in your voice
It feels as though my life is falling apart
You left my life but you stayed in my heart
Now I'm experiencing that my spirit is dying
You're gone forever, what's the use in trying?

Constantly people always change, believe me, I understand this.
In four months seems so strange, even you couldn't keep a promise.
You left without a backward glance
Not even giving me a second chance
You're shadow will have to do for now
Because that's all that you will allow

There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
When I don't think about why it was that we drifted so far away
I drown in days of remorse and remember
That awful day in early September
I can barely even make myself eat
Wondering if my life will ever again be complete
I try to be happy and not so depressed
Up until now my feelings I kept suppressed
Why can't I just get you out of my mind?

The joyous side of my heart I can no longer find
I pray that you'll come back, I wonder if I'm in your mind
So much I want to share with you; don't care if love is blind
As you drift away there's nothing I want more
Than to feel your love again, as I've never felt before
You came into my life as quickly as you left it
Every morning I dread that I will have to face it

Maybe we had moved too fast
And that's the main reason that we didn't last
I try to keep my tears bottled up deep inside
But sometimes they're so overwhelming; I just can't seem to hide
I often cry over cherished memories
All of my tears could cover the seas
How many more sorrow-filled days must go by
Until I learn the lesson: it does no good to cry

Worried I would breakup with you; this topic always seemed to come
Tides change, now you dumped me; it's forever set and done
The words are running out, there's nothing left to do
But to wait and to hope, that someday I'll get over you
So if sometimes it seems to you that I'm clinging to the past
It's mostly because I can't yet accept that our love didn't last

My Favorite Quotes and Poems!

I am Strong because i am Weak
I am Beautiful because i know my Flaws
I am a Lover because i am a Fighter
I am Fearless because i have been Afraid
I am Wise Because i have been Foolish
I can Laugh because I've known Sadness

I wanna be the girl he's scared to lose.
The one where he cant walk away
from knowing she's mad at him.
The one he cant fall asleep without
my voice being the last thing he hears.
The one he cant live without.

Im going to smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's all a dream,
pretend it's not hurting me.

Imperfection is beauty,
madness is genius,
and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous
than absolute boring.
- Marilyn Monroe

It's funny how 90 people
get the swine flu and everyone
wears face masks, but
millions get aids and
no one wants to wear condoms..

Woman came from a man's rib,
not from his feet to be walked on,
not from his head to be superior,
but from the side to be equal.
Under the arm to be protected,
next to the heart to be loved.

Its sad when people you know become people you knew.
When you can walk pass someone,
like they were never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now,
you can barely even look at them.
It's sad how time can change.

Never say I love you
If you really don't care

Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there

Never hold my hand
If you are going to break my heart

Never say you are going to
If you don't plan to start

Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie

Never say hye
If you really mean good bye

If you really mean forever
Then say you will try

Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry.

21 May 2009

If You Really Love A Woman...

If you really love a woman
tell her that you love her
and show her that the feeling is real
care for her and be her shield
protect her and be sensitive for her
dont leave her alone bcoz she will be scared
and her tears will shed

if you really love a woman
feel what she feels
touch her tenderly
and warm her with your arms
shared your secrets and world with her

if you really love a woman
cherish her with everything you got
dont scold her dont scream or shout
be soft towards her
bcoz she can bruise easily

if you really love a woman
stay by her side
dont lie or cheat
give all of you to her
listen to her
coz thats all she needs
she needs a man who can take her hand
love her with every corner of your heart
thats all you have to do

if you really love a woman...

19 May 2009

I am...

I am...
that girl who when she says she is fine
she wants someone to look at her in the eyes and tell her
she's lying.

I am...
that girl who's smile can light up a room
who make anyone laugh and feel good
but deep inside
she's crying.


I am...
that girl...
that girl...
who just wanted to be care and love
like everyone else
but I know...
things wont change

06 May 2009

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for..

1 . Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends


1 1. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug
her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus
it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something
being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*


26-don’t lie to HER.*
27-DON’T cheat on her.*
28-take her ANYWHERE she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at
work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you,
just be there so she’ll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*


31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*
34 . While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will
automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin
up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.


36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link
your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*


41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*
45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to
her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

you’ ll never know when she needs just a lil more love

p/s : no 45..sit on top of me? absolutely NO..berat laa...huhu

02 May 2009

i just dont understand..

i was juz surfing da net..went thru a few love quotes and i found 1 quote dat very interesting to me..it is...

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."
Mother Teresa

i juz dun understand why people nowadays are so judgmental? if you dunno them how can u judge them? by the way they look? by the way they behave? for me dat is so unfair..sometimes da way we behave or da way we look doesnt reflects who we are or da real us..da way we behave usually influenced by our surroundings or people around us..

have u ever heard of a quote 'never judge a book by its cover'? do u like to be judge? if u dun so dun judge others..why cant we treat everybody equally?

you hav to get to noe da person first before u can judge anything bout him/her..besides its her/his life..who da hell are u to judge whatever decisions dat he/she makes? for me u can juz try to advise but not to judge..

i never judge others i juz dun understand why people really loves to judge me..dun u hav other better things to do? do u really hav a lot of time juz to judge other people? i got a recommendation for u..why dun u use ur time dat u use to judge other people to think bout urself..reminisce every single thing dat u had done n then judge urself..did u make any mistakes? are u really a saint? if u ever make any mistakes n u really not a saint..i think u better stop judging other people n start rectify the shit out of urself..

so to anyone or anybody out there dat juz loves to judge me..i would like to say FUCK YOU! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THE REAL ME! SO YOU CAN JUST GO AND FUCK YOURSELF FUCKERS!

29 April 2009


hmm dh lame aku x update blog aku ni..byk yg aku nk critakan disini tp..setiap kali aku cube luahkn..otak aku x dpt nk memproses pkataan2 dan ayat2 yg patut aku taipkn..biala aku simpan sendri je ape yg aku rse..

aku sndri x phm n xtau ape yg aku rse..kdg2 happy..kdg2 sedih x semena2..kdg2 stress..kdg2 rse depresi..aku rse cm nk lari drpd idup aku skrg ni tp nk lari kemana? klu ikutkn aku..nk saje aku pergi tinggalkn semua yg aku ade skrg ni..pergi ke tmpt bru..menghirup udara baru..bkenalan dgn org yg baru..membuat aktiviti yg baru..semuanya baru la senang cerita..tp aku bkn anak orang senang..ayahku pesara kerajaan..mamaku pula surirumah sepenuh masa...kalau aku mau pergi ke tmpt yg baru kn byk kos yg diperlukn..jd biarla aku dgn hidupku skrg..

manusia hanya dpt melihat fizikal..aku tersnyum..aku ketawa..tp hatiku? ade sesiapa yg dpt melihat? dpt mendengar? mgkin entri ku kali ini agak emosional..tp aku cume nk luahkan ape yg aku rse..aku ttap seperti biasa..tetap riang ria ceria seperti kanak2 ribena..hehe

okla..klu rajin akan ku update lg blog ku ini..rasa kemalasan aku makin menjadi-jadi semenjak dua menjak ini...rasa cm xnk update2 lg pn ade..tp klu ade idea..aku update la ye..till then..bubye..

30 March 2009

Chicken Wing..It's Dangerous??

Avoid eating chicken wings frequently - ladies, especially; a true story...!
A friend of mine recently had a growth in her womb and she underwent an operation to remove it. The cyst removed was filled with a dark colored blood. She thought that she would be recovered after the surgery but she was terribly wrong.

A relapse occurred just a few months later. Distressed, she rushed down to her gynecologist for a consultation.
During her consultation, her doctor asked her a question that puzzled her. He ask if she was a frequent consumer of chicken wings and she replied yes wondering as to how, he knew of her eating habits. You see, the truth is in this modern day and age; chickens are injected with steroids to accelerate their growth so that the needs of this society can be met. This need is none other than the need for food..

Chickens that are injected with steroids are usually given the shot at the neck or the wings. Therefore, it is in these places that the highest concentration of steroids exists. These steroids have terrifying effects on the body as it accelerates growth.. It has an even more dangerous effect in the presence of female hormones, this leads to women being more prone to the growth of a cyst in the womb. Therefore, I advise the people out there to watch their diets and to lower their frequency of consuming chicken wings!

p/s : i got diz frm a fren of mine..thx 4 da email! =)

25 March 2009

Taking People For Granted

Every one of us, at some point or another, are guilty of believing that people we care about will always be there for us, and will always be available. But I'm afraid that it isn't necessarily so. Many of us have a tendency to put off things we want to say and do until tomorrow... sometimes we run out of tomorrows.

Our mothers, fathers, family, and friends are the core that we interact with everyday. We must always realize that there are no guarantees that each one of them will be available to us at will. By thinking that they will always be there, we can very easily take them for granted. The good deeds and contributions that they make to our lives can sometimes go by unnoticed. We casually can mutter a phrase like "Mom's always there", "Anne's a great friend", "Isn't Dad great?" like a programmed response with not a second thought to it.

Then one day, out of the blue, the phone doesn't ring, the letters stop coming...the person is gone. At that point, we begin to realize just how much we've lost. The space that's left in our lives, that was once full, is now empty. Regret starts creeping into our thoughts that maybe we didn't say enough to the person, while they were still here.

Even though it is very hard, and sometimes impossible to change the past, we can change the present. Look around....think about who in your life contributes to your development on a regular basis...and those that you, too, help. "Thank you" is not a very difficult phrase to say...but its meaning to a given person can be tremendous.

It's okay to tell people how much you need them, and how much you love them. Do it while they're here.

Take the time to love,

i feel very touched when i read this article..i miss my family especially my parent..i noe i hav a lot of sins towards them..u can say that i am selfish and self-centered dats because ive been raised as a single child..sometimes i pray dat god will take my life first rather than my parent because i noe my life will be so much harder without them..even tho i dun express my real feelings towards them..deep inside i really care n love them so damn much..there's nutting in da world means anything to me than my parent..hopefully i can still make things rite before its too late..

19 March 2009

Mon chèr

Parfois, je perd confiance en toi,
et pourtant je voudrai tant te croirecomprend moi,
malgré mon amour pour toi les entendre me fait douter pardonne moije cherche pas à te faire fuire,
voit au moins celle que tu veux suivre,
mais bébé non ne m'en veux pas si je cherche à me protegerpar le passé j'ai trop pleuré,
pourtant je fuis pour oublieraujourd'hui c'est à tes côtés que je veux avancer

10 March 2009

What Is The Difference Between Love And Marriage?

A student asked a teacher, “What is love?” The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”

The student went to the field, go through the first row, he saw one big wheat, but he wanders….maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he started to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.

So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed. The teacher told him, “…this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when you realized later on, you have already missed the person….”

“What is marriage then?” The student asked.

The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”

The student went back to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he picked one medium sized corn that he felt satisfied, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, “this time you bring back a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you can get…. this is marriage.”


I Don't Need Sex!

this article makes me wanna laugh..i get it from http://sjsandteam.wordpress.com/page/3/..

here it is..


KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia: Malaysians called it a political tsunami when public discontent loosened the government’s five-decade grip on power in elections a year ago. The period since has been likened to a circus.

123we34eThe National Front coalition remains in power, and main opposition leader Anwar Ibrahim has had to back off claims that he would topple the government within months. But normally predictable Malaysian politics is increasingly less so, as new cracks keep opening up in the ruling coalition.

The prime minister is being forced out by an open revolt in his own party. The National Front lost two special elections to fill parliamentary vacancies, an unimaginable result in the past. And the government’s attempt to oust an opposition-led state government has wound up in deadlock, with both sides claiming to be in charge.

The unprecedented weakness of the National Front has emboldened Malaysians to demand more rights in a country accustomed to virtual one-party rule since independence in 1957.

123we34eIn last year’s March 8 election, the ruling coalition had its worst-ever showing, losing its longtime two-thirds majority in parliament and control of five of Malaysia’s 13 states. Malaysians realized for the first time that “there can be alternative governments … that the power to shape opinions and decisions comes from them,” said Tricia Yeoh, a political analyst who advises the opposition.

“This translates into a more demanding public, holding governments accountable to standards higher than they themselves would have imagined prior to March 8th, 2008,” she said. Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, who was widely blamed for the setback, resisted resignation calls for months before agreeing in October to step down around March 31.

“We have been in power for so long that some people (in the party) take it for granted. We are telling our people times have changed,” said International Trade and Industry Minister Muhyiddin Yassin, a vocal critic of Badawi. “It is a question of survival.”

123we34eThe public appears lukewarm toward his successor, Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak. In a poll of 1,018 registered voters, 41 percent said he would do a good job, while 36 percent disagreed. The nationwide telephone survey by the Merdeka Center had a margin of error of 3.1 percentage points.

Razaleigh Hamzah, a respected ruling party official, said Najib’s ascent “will not magically set us on the path to restoration.”

Najib spearheaded campaigns for the two special elections, but the ruling coalition lost both. Much of the voter anger stems from the government’s empty pledges to curb corruption and cronyism, especially in awarding public contracts.

The ruling coalition has also failed to resolve racial and religious grievances of ethnic Indian and Chinese minorities in this Malay-majority nation, including alleged police killings of Indian suspects.

123we34eFears that Malaysia may tumble into its first recession since 1998 have increased disquiet. The economy grew just 0.1 percent in the final three months of 2008, and 22,000 people have lost their jobs since October.

The National Front’s sole success was in wresting back control of the northern state of Perak, which it had lost in the March 2008 elections. But even that may have backfired.

It coaxed three lawmakers to leave the rival People’s Alliance coalition, tipping the balance in the Perak legislature in its favor. But instead of waiting for a vote by lawmakers, the National Front got the state’s sultan to appoint a new chief minister from its coalition. The move was condemned as unconstitutional, and the People’s Alliance and the national lawyers’ association are demanding elections to end the deadlock. The National Front has refused.



05 March 2009


im not feeling very well today..keep sneezing non stop..my body temperature seems to climb up..hmm..today is my 1st day as an employee at the IPRM..nutting much..bored as usual..btw tonight's plan is cancel..juz because im not in da office this few days..so no one talked about it n they thot that it's cancel..i dun mind..i juz think dat i need it because im stress n not in a very good mood these days..no one knows about it except for someone dat i trust..well..i can just pray for good things to happen..*finger crossed* =)

27 February 2009

Last Day Internship..

today is my last day internship..nutting much going on coz diz whole week is da training week at the impiana hotel for the petronas PRs..we go there by turns..so we all cant gather together to decide wut we shud do as a farewell party since today is mine n imran's last day here..but luckily me,kyle n lau managed to go to impiana and had our lunch there..so we discussed and decided to go partying next thusday nite..heritage row here we come! <=== like i neva been there before..huhu..but i think it will be fun n i cant wait for dat nite to come..huhu actually i dun worry much for the farewell party coz i will continue works here at the IPRM..but its for imran la..coz he's so funny n we think dat we will miss him coz we got no one to laugh about..btw..im feeling not so good today..ive been sneezing non stop since morning..i think im having my flu again..well..till next time..daaa

19 February 2009


wut a bad unlucky month diz is for me..my handphone damaged..i hav to reformat my laptop...all my work is in my laptop..im sooo fucked up and damn bored too!!! aaaaAaAaAaAaaAA!!!!!

11 February 2009

My Name Is....

N : love by many people
U : is loved by everyone
R : gives good hugs
U : is loved by everyone
L : very good kisser

A : has a smile to die for
L : very good kisser
I : best boyfriend or girlfriend
F : wild and crazy
A : has a smile to die for
H : likes someone


A : has a smile to die for
B : is a nerd at times
C : can kick ur butt
D : great friend
E : has beautiful eyes
F : wild and crazy
H : likes someone
I : best boyfriend or girlfriend
J : gorgeous
K : easy fallin in love with
L : very good kisser
M : can be funny and dumb at times
N : love by many people
O : has one of the best personalities ever
P : popular with all types of people
Q : nice butt
R : gives good hugs
S : very open - minded
T : makes people laugh
U : is loved by everyone
V : not judgmental
W : very romantic
X : never let people tell you what to do
Y : very hot
Z : makes dating fun


04 February 2009

25 things bout me dat u shud noe

tagged by ROSE CAMILIA..

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. i am 22 years old this year..many people thot dat im younger..huhu lucky me..

2. i hav mood swings all the time..ask my parent n my bf bout it..

3. i dun like people asking me too many questions..

4. i dun like people ask me to do da same thing more than twice..im not deaf ok..

5. im da queen of tears..if im happy i cry..if im sad i cry..if im mad i cry..if im stress i cry..

6. i love chocolate a lot!

7. i love sweet colours like pink..baby blue..light purple..

8. i love to do things last minute..it makes my brain works faster..haha

9. i am hard to understand..

10. i love my parent a lot eventho i dun express it to them..

11. dun mess wit da people i love or i'll hav ur head on my plate..

12. i cant wait to hav my own job..my own money..

13. i dun like relying on other people..i wanna be independent..

14. i miss my childhood's days..no problem..always happy..

15. i hate my college..

16. i eat a lot when im bored..

17. i cant eat when im stress..

18. im a sleeping beauty..wwuuhuuuu

19. i love dancing eventho i duno how to dance..haha

20. im restless if i hav unsolved problems..

21. nothing taste better than my mom's cook..

22. i want a pink suzuki swift!!!

23. i dun eat vegetables..in fact i hate da taste..

24. i love fruits but i rarely eat them..

25. i love children..they're adorable..like me..hahahaha

i want to tag :
anyone la..i dunno whom la coz i dun hav many blogger friends..hehe

Cancer Woman

When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling
to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you
all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every
lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if it is not the case,
you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she
will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been
influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if
you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept
her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.

She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be
funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people
may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She
loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will
not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help
you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes
will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also
influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough,
not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring
her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old
or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a
way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive.

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one
with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget
it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue
with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her
tears and start clean up her apartment normally.

She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the
way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is
your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in
law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women,
but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and
disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K.
This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She
can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with
no Love.

hehe..so true..