12 October 2009

is it because of my PMS?


hmm i dunno why..
suddenly i feel so stress and feel like crying..
is it because my pms is coming?
i hate this feeling..

i wanna run away from all this..
run away from all the problems..
from all the people..
i juz wanna be in a place where i can be alone..
yeah..i noe..i am all alone now..
i wanna be somewhere or anywhere else but not here..

i juz wanna be in a place like an island perhaps..
a beach or some place quite..
quite from all the noise..
where there will be only me..white sandy beach..
the sound of the waves..the moon and the stars..
with the accompany of a few loved ones wud be great..

i noe i am strong..
but the loneliness and the emptiness inside me is killing me slowly..
dear god..if u can hear me..
please send me someone from above who can love me as i am..
someone who will love me like i love him/her..
someone who can care for me like i care for him/her..
someone who understand me better than anyone else..
someone who will never judge me but will guide me thru all the way..
someone who will stand beside me and never put me aside..
someone who will love me eternally..

i noe it's easier said than done..
'i will always be there for you'
'you always have me'
i heard that a lot..
i noe i have a great circle of families..frens and a few close frens..
i noe u guys will always try to be there for me..
and i appreciate that..thank you..
but yeah..u see me smiling and laughing..
talking and giggling..
singing and dancing..
flirting and enjoying my life..
but do u noe deep down inside of me?
i think no one will ever noe..

i am not the type of girl who loves to tell anyone bout how i feel..
i am not the type of girl who loves to share..
i am exactly not the type of girl who u think i am..
so if u really think u noe me..
u better think twice..

i think its enuff for tonite..
i can go on babbling all nite long..
to all my families and friends..
i love you and thank you again..
only Allah will repay you..





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