31 December 2008

The End of 2008

well i dunno wut im gonna say..for me 2008 is not a good fortunate year for me..bad things happened..good things happened..ive made new friends..i lost a few friends..its a life experience dat everybody must go through..i laughed..i cried..i smiled..i still remember every moment of it..sometimes i wish dat i hav a temporary memory lost or something..coz i hate to remember all the bad things dat happened..i wish i can just remember the happy moments..i feel like crying coz reminiscing all the things dat happened dis year..everyday goes by so fast dat now i realize im going to turn 22 soon..i miss my family..i miss all my friends..i wish i can turn back time but i know i couldnt..how i wish dat we all can be together like before..supporting n helping each other..hurm..i dun feel da same bout my family..i dun feel da same bout my friends too..everything had change n how i wish i can change it back..

the world had change..there are so many bad things happen around da world..da war..da hunger..da thirst..da poor..i dunno wuts wrong wit the mind of the israel people..why they like killing other people so much? wut the victims had done dat they hav to receive and feel such pain? wud they like if their fathers, mothers, daughters n sons feel da same way like da victims did? i hope 2009 will be a better year for the palestinian and also for other places n people around da world..god bless evry single country and evry single person in diz world..HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

30 December 2008

Ermmm.. =)

Well..i feel like i've got a long holiday..eventho it was juz 3 days...on friday..i went back early around 4.30 pm..nutting much lepaking inside da house..went to JJ w.maju..helped my bf buy his trousers and shirts..sent ayu to hentian putra n came back home around 1.30 am..on saturday..me n my bf..went to genting around 3.++ pm..dat was da 2nd time we went there on our own without any frens..it was nice n freezing..coz it was raining there..i bought myself a pair of pink bulu2 glove..huhu i wanted to buy a few clothes but my bf kept on nagging at me dat i better buy something dat i can wear to work..so didnt buy anything except for dat pair of glove..we went back to kL around 8 sumthing pm...then we ate at OM n went home..on sunday n monday my bf teman me..doing nutting...watch dvd..we spent a lot of time together which im really3 happy bout it..'you know i always want you..forever.. =)'....went out jln2 n wut dat im happy about is i already finish reading all four of the twilight books..huhu...good books..i love them so much..im looking forward to read other books as well like the twilight saga guide..midnight sun..cant wait to watch the movie's sequel..i even can imagine how they'll shoot it..hope they'll start shooting it soon!!

24 December 2008

My Weekend..

My weekend was hectic n restless...well my parent n my aunt's family from spore came to kL since last thursday till sunday..my cousins (my aunts kids) went back to spore last nite..they picked me up on friday nite..we went jln2 here n there..went to genting...a lot of things happened which im lazy to write about..so wut i can say is..they didnt planned it well so i dun like dat kind of holiday n i dun enjoy it much..coz rushing here n there..x ckup bntal la..slimut la..the apartment looked spooky n it was so damn cold there...i can swear dat i'll never sleep at amber court genting AGAIN..we bought the 1 day unlimited pass for outdoor n indoor games but i only got to play 2 of the outdoor games n 2 of the inside games..u noe why? dats wut happen when u dun plan ur holiday well..da only thing dat i like was the things was all on sale n so damn cheap compared here in kL but too bad..i dun hav enuff money to buy anything except red knitted long sleeve for RM19..haha well i thot it was cheap...i didnt believe the price so i asked the sales girl..it turned out dat my eyes are still clear n read da price rite..i came back home on sunday nite around 9 pm..ahh...wut a holiday...if dat wut u call a holiday...haha

23 December 2008


Good governance is perhaps the single
most important factor in eradicating
poverty and promoting development.

Off all ills that kill the poor,
none is as lethal as bad governance.

The difference between what
we do and what we are capable
of doing would suffice to solve most
of the world's problem.

We must become the change
we want to see.

14 December 2008

Sepi 2008..

Bisikku pada bulan
Kembalikan temanku,
Kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku,
Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang,
Biar alam ini kelam,
Biar ia sepi sepertiku

13 December 2008

I wish...

i wish i am happy...
i wish im in peace..
i wish i dont have to cry anymore...
i wish u could understand the real me..
i wish we dont have to fight..
i wish i could sleep tight at night..
i wish i dont have to do stupid things..
i wish that all those bad things never happen..
i wish that we can always spend the time together..
i wish i can trust u anymore..
i wish i can believe all the things u said to me..
i wish our love can be stronger than before..


i dont know whether all these wishes will come true..
i can just hope for better days to come..
oh god..
please make me stronger..

11 December 2008

Pelajar kita malas?

cube tgk laman web ni..


aku just tertarik bila baca berita ni..im as student cannot deny the fact that most of our student are lazy..dlm artikel tu dr.lo' lo ada ckp statement datuk tajuddin tu mcm merendah-rendahkan pelajar kita..tapi pada pendapat aku bukan merendah-rendahkn tapi itulah yang sebenarnya terjadi..

aku sendiri seorang pelajar yang menuntut di IPTS..so aku tau laa kehidupan seorang pelajar tu macamana..aku sendiri tak bleh nak menafikan yang pelajar bukan melayu dan pelajar luar negara lagi bijak dari pelajar kita sendiri..dorang rajin dalam mencari ilmu..sanggup buat research jauh2 dan bermacam2 lg..tapi pelajar kita? lagi satu kelebihan golongan ni ialah mereka tahu dan fasih lebih dari satu bahasa..sedangkan pelajar kita lebih selesa menggunakan bahasa melayu mcm aku..haha cuba korang check kelayakan dan kelebihan bagi yang hendak memohon pekerjaan..mesti kena fasih bahasa inggeris dan tahu bahasa mandarin merupakan kelebihan..is there anything else to say?

pada pendapat aku la..pelajar kita ni terlalu dimanjakan sangat..kerajaan bagi macam2 kemudahan pada pelajar kita..semuanya untuk kesenangan pelajar kita dalam mencari ilmu dan juga untuk bantu bangsa sendiri..tapi hanya segelintir pelajar kita yang betul2 menggunakan bantuan yang diberikan untuk kerajaan demi mencari ilmu..yang lainnya leka..mana taknya duit bantuan yang diberikan kerajaan ataupun swasta..duit kiriman dari ibu bapa lagi..macam2 yang dah dirancangnya..nak beli handphone baru laa...untuk shopping laa...bercuti laa...aku sendiri pnah berfikiran macam tu..

lagi satu yang aku tertarik bila bace beriata ni ialah loke siew fook DAP -RASAH berkata "Mereka ada budaya 3M iaitu menyalin nota, menghafal nota dan muntah balik nota (semasa peperiksaan) dan tak ada perkara lain,"

psal statement ni plak aku nak bagi pendapat dan cadangan sikit laa ehh..kenapa mesti pensyarah2 bagi nota dengan senang2 nya pada pelajar? kenapa tidak pensyarah2 ni bagi tajuk pada pelajar2 suruh mereka buat research dan bentangkan kat kelas? masa bentangkn tulah pensyarah2 nak komen ke..nak tambah apa2 yang patut ke..then bila bagus dan lengkap..edarkan pada keseluruhan kelas..jadi dengan cara ni pelajar2 dapat menimba ilmu secara independent dengan bantuan dan tunjur ajar daripada pensyarah masing2..takde laa kena suap kat mulut je sepanjang masa..ini daripada pengalaman aku sendiri..thanks to all my lecturer especially..en.rie..en.daly..miss ummi and puan amiela myra..u all really open my eyes and my mind to think big..not only to think outside the box but to tear the box apart..huhu

ni cuma pendapat aku je eh..takdenye nak mengata sape2..berunsur perkauman ke ape..kita kena sedar tahap kita berada sekarang kat mana dan kita kena mengakuinya..

10 December 2008



A depressive disorder is an illness that involves the body, mood, and thoughts. When a person has a depressive disorder, it interferes with daily life, normal functioning, and causes pain for both the person with the disorder and those who care about him or her. A depressive disorder is not the same as a passing blue mood. It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away. People with a depressive illness cannot merely "pull themselves together" and get better. Without treatment, symptoms can last for weeks, months, or years. Depression is a common but serious illness, and most people who experience it need treatment to get better. Appropriate treatment, however, can help most people who suffer from depression.


Not everyone who is depressed or manic experiences every symptom. Some people experience a few symptoms, some many. Severity of symptoms varies with individuals and also varies over time.

  • Persistent sad, anxious, or empty mood
  • Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism
  • Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness
  • Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
  • Decreased energy, fatigue, being "slowed down"
  • Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
  • Insomnia, early morning awakening or oversleeping
  • Appetite and/or weight loss, or overeating and weight gai
  • Thoughts of death or suicide, suicide attempts
  • Restlessness, irritability
  • Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders and chronic pain

  • Depression in Women

    Women experience depression about twice as often as men. Biological, life cycle, hormonal, and other factors unique to women may be linked to their higher depression rate. Researchers have shown that hormones directly affect brain chemistry that controls emotions and mood. Some women may be susceptible to a severe form of premenstrual syndrome called premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD). Women affected by PMDD typically experience depression, anxiety, irritability, and mood swings the week before menstruation, in such a way that interferes with their normal functioning. Women with debilitating PMDD do not necessarily have unusual hormone changes, but they do have different responses to these changes. They may also have a history of other mood disorders and differences in brain chemistry that cause them to be more sensitive to menstruation-related hormone changes. Scientists are exploring how the cyclical rise and fall of estrogen and other hormones may affect the brain chemistry that is associated with depressive illness.

    For example, women are particularly vulnerable to depression after giving birth, when hormonal and physical changes, along with the new responsibility of caring for a newborn, can be overwhelming. Many new mothers experience a brief episode of the "baby blues," but some will develop postpartum depression, a much more serious condition that requires active treatment and emotional support for the new mother. Some studies suggest that women who experience postpartum depression have had prior depressive episodes. Treatment by a sympathetic physician and the family's emotional support for the new mother are prime considerations in aiding her to recover her physical and mental well-being as well as her ability to care for and enjoy the infant.

    Many women also face additional stresses of work and home responsibilities, single parenthood and caring for children and aging parents, abuse, poverty, and relationship strains. It remains unclear why some women faced with enormous challenges develop depression, while others with similar challenges do not.

wow..I've got most of the symptoms..do you??

10 December 2008

hmm..hari ni aku sampai ofis 8.35 am..at first i thot im gonna be late coz kena hantar ayu kt hartamas dulu..but then smpai on time..ok laa tu..as usual..belum ada org sampai kt ofis lagi..my hari raya aidiladha was a bit ok n hectic..aku kena bangun pagi2 then ada org cari gaduh dengan aku pagi2 raya tu..melayan anak2 sedara aku yg x geti duk diam..then kena klua teman cousin aku beli barang till 6.15pm and my bus tuk balik kL was at 8pm..selalu aku balik kL dlm 3 jam je but that nite smpai 5 jam lebih coz jam teruk kat highway..start dari rembau sampai laa nak dekat2 bangi i think..x sure coz aku tertido..aku sampai pudu dlm 1.15am..my exclassmate followed me to kL that nite coz she's on her semester holiday now..semalam aku dapat cuti 1 hari so aku pun pegi laa jalan2 dengan my exclassmate ni..her name is izzah..at first kitorg pegi rumah beshfren kitorg..nama die zulfah..die baru je bersalin on the 28.11.2008..she's got a baby boy named ahmad fayyad..a very cute baby boy..i'll post his picture later aite..then kitorg pegi makan kat carrefour ampang then pegi kLcc tgk wayang..wild child at 7.10pm..the movie was okay..a typical teenager movie which you can expect what's gonna happen next..then balik pegi mkn kt brj..then trus blk umah..aku tertido dlm pukul 11.15pm cmtu..hmm awal kn..huhu sebelum ni paling awal aku tido pn pukul 3am..aku tak tahu nak tulis ape lg..nanti kalu ade idea aku post lagi ye..dAA~

05 December 2008

Everyday is the same...

yeah rite..evryday is da same day to me..woke up early in the morning..took a bath..get dressed..go to work..come back home at 5.30pm..watch tv and sleep..im an intern at the institue of public relations malaysia..at 1st i thot it must be a quite big office wit a lot of worker..well as the usual office..but it turns out they have only 3 workers including me..my boss..the account executive n me the intern..so i get really bored every single day cause i hav no friends here..i work alone..i eat alone and evrything i do on my own..i dun even noe till when i hav to be alone..my boss said they gonna hire new worker soon n also there are 2 more interns will be coming next january from the stamford college..so i guess i'll be alone this whole december..pity me huh? if anybody out there wanna accompany me to lunch..do tell me ya..haha ;p

04 December 2008

My 1st post..hehe

since almost everybody has a blog..so i thought why not if i have a blog..so my first post would be..hmmm i think i wanna talk about the twilight movie..last nite i watched the twilight movie with my roomies..since i never read the novel so i thought the movie was good..very romantic and sweet and how i wish i could have a bf like EDWARD CULLEN..hehe he's so thoughtful towards his gf and they're very sweet when they're together..the lines and the script in the movie is so romantic and thoughtful especially edward's lines..every girls hopes and dreams that their bf would say the same words to them..one of my favorite line is 'I DONT HAVE THE STRENGHT TO STAY AWAY FROM YOU ANYMORE' so simple yet the words give a huge impact to a person's feelings..but when i read the review for this film..a lot of people are disappointed with it because they said that the novel is way more better..so i think im gonna try to find the novel and read it..hope i have the time to find it.. =)