29 June 2009


This pain fills me
this pain of emptiness
a pain that doesn't go away
a pain of longing for
what I don't have
having what I don't want
a pain of the past
and also the future
a pain that nobody cares I have
a pain that I have every day
this pain fills me
from the soles of my feet
to the top of my head
I am filled
my soul is dim
the pain is a killer
it wants to take over
I fight
for what it is worth
I fight this pain
I just want this burden
to be gone
so I may be free
I just want this pain
that fills me

a LONG weekend..

well my last weekend is not da best weekend in my life..i could probably say da worst weekend for the year..i dun wanna say bout it or remember it..i juz wanna go wit da flow..i didnt eat anything yesterday..i felt hungry but i dun hav da appetite to eat..i've been crying all nite long till my eyes swell..i cant sleep tight coz of migrain..it was a perfect nite 4 me..isnt it? whatever..i dun have the mood to type or say anything anymore..daaa

26 June 2009

Michael Jackson aka Mikaeel dies at age 50..

his exclusive last photo..

OMG..i juz cant believe wut i heard..he dies at 2.26pm LA time..when i heard it i was like in shock..i cant say a thing..this is juz too surreal for me..i heard bout his comeback concert in london on 13th july 2009..all the tix are sold out already..eventho im not a big fan of him but i adore him..i listened to his songs since im a kid..i think i cant believe it coz i didnt hear any news bout him getting sick then suddenly his dead? wut?? i hope he died as a muslim as we all noe he converted to islam in 2008..may Allah bless and will always be with him..rest in peace MJ aka Mikaeel..u are truly a legend..u will always stays in our heart and will always be missed..

here is one of his song which is my all time favorite..

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

25 June 2009

New update..

well things are much better now only that i dunno wuts wrong wit me..im havin my flu every single day and i dunno y..i dun eat seafoods..i already cleaned up my room..so im tired of thinking why..maybe coz of the weather..sometimes hot sometimes cold..sometimes shiny sometimes rainy..when is this gonna end? i feel like tearing up my nose..please god help me eventho i noe im not a gud girl..i just cant stand having my flu every single day..*finger crossed*

akon concert is just around the corner..2nd july next thursday..i dunno whether i shud go or not..im really fuckin excited when i knew bout it..but now the feeling is slowly fading..maybe because there's a lot of obstacles preventing me from going..but who knows suddenly the excitement feeling arousing again..i might go.. =)

12 June 2009

Betrayed and lied..

finally im going back to my hometown today..yeay!! it's been a few weeks or a month maybe since my last footsteps in BP..im going back at 6.30pm..BP wait 4 me!! =)

i was so happy for the last few days but it ended yesterday..wanna noe why? i juz found out dat some person dat i trust my life with betrayed and lied to me..it's not a big deal actually but i juz cant accept it..i juz hate liars..juz tell me da truth whether it will hurt me or not than i get to noe by myself and it will hurt me more..dun u get it??

to someone : maybe u can accept me back when i lied to u but i was frank to u before u found out bout it..doesnt it hurt u more if u found out from someone else or by urself? answer me please..

and the best part was..i found out about it from someone else who thought i knew bout it but obviously i didnt..heh..and u still kept ur mouth shut and acted like u dun noe a shit bout it rite?? thx a lot! i trusted u and i told u da biggest secret of my life and yet diz is wut u did to me?? how am i suppose to trust u anymore??

im sory for evry single nasty words i said to u..but i juz cant accept people dat i love and trust my life with betrayed and lied to me..i juz cant..diz is da way i am whether u like it or not..

IF..if we ever get back together and be friends again..i wont trust u like i trusted u before..u can do whatever u like..hangout with your beloved friends wherever u want just dun..dun tell me anything..i dun wanna noe a damn shit bout it anymore..


08 June 2009


sakit badan..

sakit belakang..

sakit perut..

sakit kepala..

nak baring.... =(

Please Take Me There.. =)


I know a place that we can go to
A place where no one knows you
They won't know who we are
I know a place that we can run to
And do those things we want to
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there

I know a place that we've forgotten
A place we won't get caught in
They won't know who we are (they won't know, won't know)
I know a place where we can hide out
And turn our hearts inside out
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there

I know a place we'll be together
And stay this young forever
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there

We can get away to a better place if you let me take you there
We can go there now cause every second counts
Girl just let me take you there
Take you there

p/s: i just love this song from plain white t's and really hope dat someone can take me 'there'.. =)

05 June 2009

Im Sick... =(

feeling sick..my body temperature seems to climb up and down for a few days now..
i dunno why..i took my medication but still feels da same..hurmm...
im feeling lightheaded..nausea..flu...arghh..
no mood for everything or anything..
just wanna lie down n rest... =(