Stop Messing With My Head And Kiss Me

Reasons Why I Love You

2012-01-25T02:36:00.004+08:00

Why I Love You So Much

I can be myself when I am with you
Every time I look at you, my heart misses a beat
Love is, what you mean to me - and you mean everything.
I like your small gestures that speak volumes about how much you care
The fact that you are without a doubt my true soul mate
The fact that you are the first and only person I’ve ever loved and the first person who ever truly loved me.
The amazing way you always seem to be able to read my mind
You bring out the best in me.
Just a sight of you lifts my up spirits.
You have taught me what it is to love and be loved.
I can be clumsy and foolish when I am with you, yet know that your love for me will never diminish.
Your smile is enough to make a dull day seem bright as sun.
Being in your arms makes me feel like I can never be lost again.
I have had the time of my life and I owe it all to you
We can talk about everything or nothing--it's always okay with you
When you listen, I know you're really listening and not just waiting for your turn to talk
I can feel your love, in the warmth of your touch, 'cause it touches my heart and soul
You always know just how to spoil me.
When we're together, time just comes to a halt.
Your loving gaze is enough to carry me through a long day.
You're the one who makes happiness happen.
Because of you, no matter what may come tomorrow, today my life is more complete.
I want to stay forever with you.
I just can't imagine being me without you.
Just a touch...and I lose my heart all over again.
Whenever I need it most you're there with your all-purpose hugs.
Ever since you have come into my life, I yearn to come back home and see your smile.
Your innocence makes me forget all shady things of this world.
I love the way you get angry whenever I am late; yet wait for me for as long as it takes.
You have given meaning to my existence.
You are the only one who can make me smile even in my deepest sorrows.
I respect the faith you have in me and love you for it.
You always make me feel that you are by my side no matter what
The way that you always look for and find the positive in everything
Last but not least, everything you are makes me love you more and more each day

Happy New Year 2012

2011-12-31T20:33:00.003+08:00

As you know that

2days d last day

Of d year 2011

I wanna thank d

Special ppl, who

Touched my life

With their

Concern & made

My life more

Meaningful,

U r 1 of them,

Thanks 4 your

Contribution 2 my life

May almighty

ALLAH

Continue 2 give you

Abundant

Blessing &

Happiness in d

Coming years

Too

Amin.

Ombak Rindu Full Movie

2011-12-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

Enjoice!!

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Keserabutan

2011-12-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

serabut sangat kepala otak aku skrg ni..
aku rsa mcm nk p tmpt baru yg sume org tak kenal aku..
syiok kan klau mcm tu..
serious ni!! isk
taktau nk buat ape dh..
redha je tp takleh gk..
asik terpikir je bnda yg blum setel yg ntah bila nk setel..
zZzZZzz (-_-")

acaner ni acaner????

Gerhana Bulan 10 Disember 2011

2011-12-10T20:43:00.003+08:00

malam ni akan terjadinya gerhana bulan..lebih kurang dalam pukul 8.45mlm-12.00tgh mlm..waktu ni jugak di galakkan utk melakukan sembahyang sunat gerhana..hukumnya sunat muakad..waktu ini jugak dikatakan waktu yg akan dimakbulkan doa..jadi marilah kita beramai2 menunaikan solat sunat gerhana ini..mudahan2 ibadah dan doa kita diterima dan dimakbulkan Allah..kalau tak dapat menjadi makmum di masjid pun..buat bersendirian pun takpe.. :)

PANDUAN RINGKAS SOLAT GERHANA & KHUTBAHNYA

Lafaz Niat Solat Sunat Gerhana Bulan

أُصَلِّى سُنَّةَ الخُسُوفِ رَكْعَتَينِ للهِ تَعَالَى

Ertinya : “ Sahaja aku solat sunat gerhana bulan dua rakaat kerana Allah Taala.”

Lafaz Niat Solat Sunat Gerhana Matahari

أُصَلِّى سُنَّةَ الْكُسُوفِ رَكْعَتَينِ للهِ تَعَالَى

Ertinya : “ Sahaja aku solat sunat gerhana matahari dua rakaat kerana Allah Taala.”

Cara & Bilangan Rakaat

Terdapat 3 cara melaksanakan solat sunat gerhana iaitu;

i. Yang terlebih sempurna ialah dilakukan 2 rakaat dengan setiap rakaat 2 ruku’ dan 2 qiyam yang dipanjangkan bacaan surah dan tasbihnya pada kedua-dua rakaat (Kesimpulannya: jumlah ruku’, qiyam dan sujud adalah sebanyak 4 kali dalam dua rakaat solat sunat gerhana). Ini adalah cara yang dilakukan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w. bersama para sahabatnya dan melibatkan masa yang amat panjang. Kadar panjang bacaan surah ialah surah al-Baqarah (286 ayat) dalam qiyam pertama, sirah Aali Imran (200 ayat) dalam qiyam kedua, surah al-Nisa’ (176 ayat) dalam qiyam ketiga, dan surah al-Ma’idah (120 ayat) dalam qiyam keempat). Kadar panjang tasbih ialah sekadar bacaan 100 ayat dalam ruku’ dan sujud pertama, sekadar bacaan 90 ayat dalam ruku’ dan sujud kedua, sekadar bacaan 70 ayat dalam ruku’ dan sujud ketiga, dan sekadar bacaan 50 ayat dalam ruku’ dan sujud keempat.

ii. Yang lebih sempurna dilakukan 2 rakaat dengan 2 kali ruku’ dan 2 kali qiyam, dengan tidak dipanjangkan bacaan pada kedua-dua rakaat. Ini adalah cara yang sederhana dan tidak memakan masa yang lama.

iii. Sekurang-kurangnya 2 rakaat seperti solat sunat biasa. Ini adalah cara dan bilangan rakaat yang paling minimum dan melibatkan tempoh yang singkat.

Huraian Cara Kedua (Sederhana Panjang)

Berikut adalah huraian cara solat gerhana dalam tempoh yang sederhana iaitu sekitar 30-40 minit berdasarkan pengalaman menunaikan solat gerhana bulan pada hari Selasa 15 Syaaban 1428 bersamaan 28 Ogos 2007 lalu. Turut dicadangkan bacaan surah-surah pilihan daripada juzuk ke-30 yang lebih dikenali di kalangan masyarakat kita dengan ’ayat-ayat lazim’.

(Rakaat Pertama)

1. Takbiratul Ihram.

2. Membaca doa iftitah.

3. Membaca Isti’azah. (أَعُوْذُ بِالله مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ الرَّجِيْمِ)

4. Membaca surah al-Fatihah.

5. Membaca surah dalam qiyam pertama. Dicadangkan membaca surah surah al-Baqarah (ayat 1-25) atau surah al-A’laa (19 ayat).

6. Ruku’ (pertama) dan membaca tasbih (100 kali tasbih).

7. Iktidal dan qiyam kedua, membaca surah al-Fatihah dan surah. Dicadangkan membaca surah al-Baqarah (ayat 26-48) atau surah al-Ghaasyiyah (26 ayat).

8. Ruku’ (kedua) dengan membaca tasbih (90 kali tasbih).

9. Iktidal.

10. Sujud (pertama) dan membaca tasbih (100 kali tasbih).

11. Duduk antara 2 sujud (sunat dipanjangkan tempohnya).

12. Sujud (kedua) dan membaca tasbih (90 kali tasbih).

13. Berdiri ke rakaat kedua.

(Rakaat Kedua)

1. Qiyam ketiga dan membaca surah al-Fatihah.

2. Membaca surah. Dicadangkan membaca surah al-Baqarah (ayat 49-61) atau surah al-Syams (15 ayat).

3. Ruku’ (ketiga) dan membaca tasbih (70 kali tasbih).

4. Iktidal dan qiyam keempat, membaca surah al-Fatihah dan membaca surah. Dicadangkan membaca surah al-Baqarah (ayat 62-74) atau surah al-Zalzalah (8 ayat).

5. Ruku’ (keempat) dengan membaca tasbih (50 kali tasbih).

6. Iktidal.

7. Sujud (ketiga) dan membaca tasbih (70 kali tasbih).

8. Duduk antara 2 sujud (sunat dipanjangkan tempohnya).

9. Sujud (keempat) dan membaca tasbih (50 kali tasbih).

10. Membaca tasyahhud akhir.

11. Memberi salam & imam bangun menyampaikan dua khutbah.

Without You - David Guetta

2011-12-08T00:32:00.003+08:00

I can’t win, I can’t reign
I will never win this game without you, without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same without you, without you

I won’t run, I won’t fly
I will never make it by without you, without you
I can’t rest, I can’t fight
All I need is you and I, without you

Without….

You! You! You! You!
You! You! You! You!

Can’t erase, so I’ll take blame
But I can’t accept that we're estranged without you, without you
I can’t quit now, this can’t be right

I can’t take one more sleep this night without you, without you
I won’t soar, I won’t climb
If you’re not here, I’m living life without you, without you

I can’t look, I’m so blind
Lost my heart, I lost my mind without you

Without….

You! You! You! You!
You! You! You! You!

Breaking Dawn Part 1

2011-12-02T04:23:00.005+08:00

well..its 4.23am in the morning n i cant sleep..TAHNIAH!!

disebabkan aku xleh tdo n kepala otak aku ligat dok pikir mcm2 ni baiklah aku update blog ni n type je ape yg ade dlm kepala..hehe

arini movie ombak rindu stat show kt pawagam so TL n status FB sume update psal tu je..

before this sume update psal breaking dawn ni je..

sepupu aku ckp citer ni lg bosan dr Eclipse so aku pun terfikir..kalau bosan dri aku membazir duet tgk wayang baik aku download je kn..

so al-kisahnye tadi la baru aku sempat tgk cter ni setelah abes download semalam..

hurmm..pada aku citer ni xdela bosan sgt but quite menghampakan aku la sbb aku expect more..

well weddings never fail to make me smile so bleh dikatakan aku asyik tersenyum je sblm part bella sakit tu tiba..

and because i love romantic movies pada aku jugak movie agak sweet la kan..

bila tiba je part bella pregnant n sakit tu start tu la citer agak membosankan coz terjadinye konflik antara bella n edward..jacob dgn werewolves clan die..byk ckp2..boring~!!

lg satu dlm movie ni aku x suka part bella cuba buat mcm2 supaya edward tdo dgn die..aku tau dlm novel pn cmtu gk..nk wat cmna kn..tp nampak desperate gila kott.... (-_-")

tp kan aku xtau la ni camera trick ke ape tp bella nampak sgt3 kurus dlm movie ni..

especially time kt bilik mandi yg die dgn rosaline tu n time die labor n also kunun2 time die mati tu..nmpak mcm anorexic plak..

the make up plak instead of making her look sick..die nampak mcm dh tua..hehe

oleh sebab antara semua novel twilight saga ni novel breaking dawn yg paling tebal sekali, so aku mcm x pcaya la yg jalan cerita n plot movie ni cm pendek..tak sampai 2jam pun duration die..cmpur ending credit around 1 hour and 46 mins je..

anyways..aku amat2 dan amat sekali berharap agar part 2 nanti x menghampakan aku..*finger crossed* hehe ;D

It Will Rain - Bruno Mars

2011-11-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.

There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my leaves are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin’ out the door.

Chorus:
Cause there’ll be no more sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
if I lose you, baby
Just let the clouds, I
I will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain

I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
walkin’ with that troublesome guy

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But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand
Oooh well little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yea for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
That’ll make you mine

Chorus:
Cause there’ll be no more sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, I
I will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain

I’ll do the same
goodbye, don’t just say, goodbye
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
That’ll make it right

Chorus:
Cause there’ll be no more sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, I
I will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain

p/s: i wud like to dedicate this song to me loved one..hopefully all our plan will come true next year..InsyaAllah.. ;)

Ombak Rindu

2011-11-23T02:18:00.001+08:00

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosaku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dariku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mataku
Yang mengalir membasuh lukaku
Agar dia tahu ku tersiksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu berserah
Moga cahaya tiba nanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

I Miss My Parent..

2011-10-28T23:07:00.007+08:00

My parent left Malaysia for Hajj on 10 Oct 2011. They will be back on 23 Nov 2011. I miss them so much. :(

I miss your voice that used to softly sing my special lullaby.
I miss your hands that used to hold me when I was scared.
I miss your eyes that would bring me to ease each time I stared into them.
I miss your nicknames you gave me when I would act bad.
I miss you falling asleep to your heartbeat when I would lay my head upon your chest.
I miss the prayers you taught me when we prayed together.
I miss our long talks on the phone.
I miss the "I love you's" & "Be careful's" everyday.
I miss the "Good Morning" & "Good night's".
I miss our tickle fights.
I miss our arguments knowing you were always right.
I miss you...

I am blessed to have them as my parent even if i died and live again i cant find or have a parent like them. they always there for me whenever i need them. even i always take them forgranted, rarely tell them that i love n miss them, they still love me unconditionally. eventhough we're not a rich family, they always try their best to give me the best. eventhough i rarely tell them that i love them, deep in my heart there's no one that i love and need most than them. i would do anything for them even die for them.

"Ya Allah ya tuhanku, kau ampunilah dosa kedua ibu bapaku. Kau panjangkan lah umur mereka dan murahkan lah rezeki mereka. Kau jauhilah mereka dari segala bencana dan malapetaka. Kau sihatkan lah tubuh badan mereka agar mereka dapat menunaikan ibadah mu dengan sempurna agar mereka mendapat haji yang mabrur ya Allah. Tiada lain yang ku pinta darimu melainkan yang terbaik untuk mereka. Sesungguhnya Kau yang maha pengasih lagi mengasihani. Amin."

p/s: Hurt them? I'll have your head on my plate. ;)

Pics Update!

2011-10-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Love!!

2011-10-01T11:39:00.008+08:00

Happy 27th Birthday to my dear Syafiq Ridzuan!!

His birthday was on 29th Sept.

He always told to me that he never celebrate his birthday before.

So i think why not this year i plan a lil bit of suprise for him. hehe

on the 28th sept noon, i called his bestfriend Mat and told him that tomorrow is fick's bday and i want to plan sumthing for him. I asked Mat to tell a few of their friends about it n i said it wud be better if they can buy some flour and eggs. i also asked Mat to make sure that fick go to work a lil bit earlier tonight coz i want to bake some cupcakes for him.

at first i thot i wanna come n suprise him around 12am but then after discussing with Mat we changed the time. so i need to wait till they finish working around 3am.

fick went to work around 8pm that night and i start baking around 9.30pm. baking the chocolate moist cupcakes was easy but to decorate it with fondant was the hardest part. it took me nearly 3 hours just to decorate it. luckily i got boy, daus n dayah to help me.

we finish decorating the cupcakes around 2am. i called Mat and asked him to cepat2 kemas n go to McD Cheras. He said okay and will inform me back once they finish packing. at 3am mat sms me and ask me to come to downtown coz they already start throwing him the flour. i said its okay, just pujuk him to go to McD Cheras after diz. i'll meet them there.

Mat, Fick and Madir arrived at mcD around 3.30am. i waited in the car with daus n boy coz Andy and Zura havent arrive yet. after Andy and Zura came, then only i went to his table with the cupcakes and happy birthday candles on top of it. He was suprise and speechless!! Haha

because im in the office rite now so i dun hav his pics and the cupcakes. i'll update the pic later but the cupcakes look sumthing like this :

i called em the 18SX Cupcakes. hehe

After eating and chit chatting we all went back around 4.30am.

Eventhough its only 8 of us but as long as he was happy, im satisfied!

He said thank you to me many times that night. hee ;D

What makes me very happy is that everybody said the cupcakes is delicious.

Even when we sent sum of the cupcakes to his sister in law, kak ida in putrajaya,

kak ida said i bought the cupcakes. Haha

Lastly, Happy Birthday Syg and i wish u all the happiness and success in the world! I'll always love you and hopefully we will always be together and happy forever. ;)

You Just Keep On Loving Me

2011-09-24T12:17:00.000+08:00

No matter what I look like,
Whether pretty or plain you see,
When I’m all dressed up or in PJs,
You just keep on loving me.

Sometimes I’m happy and cheerful;
Other times grumpy and sad;
Your absolute love never wavers,
Whether I’m grouchy or glad.

Sometimes I try to change you;
And sometimes I criticize;
But I feel something melting within me,
When I see all the love in your eyes.

Your tolerance is endless,
However I choose to be;
Having my love makes you happy,
So you just keep on loving me.

And that is why, my darling,
Whatever else I do,
One thing is sure; no matter what,
I’ll just keep on loving you.

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2011-09-14T16:48:00.015+08:00

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60 Things Guys Should Know About Girls

2011-09-08T13:23:00.004+08:00

1) For all we talk about how hot guys are. We mostly care about there personality. Though a hot body is a plus

2) We are just as shy as you are about relationships

3) Many of us don't let you see us cry, unless we want you to comfort us

4) We like dropping small flirts, to see if you are interested. But we will later deny it or make it into a joke

5) Most of us prefer to be call beautiful than hot or sexy. But not all of us

6) We only wear mini skirts, tank tops and skimpy cloths for you (unless it's REALLY REALLY hot outside). So if you don't like what we wear say something likely look really nice today, but you know...I think I like you in jeans better'

7) We travel in groups for one of two reasons 1) because we want to share some form of gossip with each other or get advice on something 2) B/c we don't want to get caught by ourselves with you because we won't know what to say and are afraid we'll make a fool of ourselves

8) MOST girls spend about 15% of the time thinking about specific guys, 20% thinking of guys in general, 25% thinking of how to get guys to notice us and what to say when we do, 30% of the time TALKING about guys (even if someone else isn't listening), and 10% of the time doing something else

9) Girls automatically assume that all guys are ***** and only want to get into our pants until you prove otherwise (and even then some small part of us still thinks that)

10) Most girls are under the impression that guys only want skinny 'hot' girls

11) Most girls enjoy being paraded around once in awhile in front of your friends. We enjoy having you show us off to your friends, kind of like, 'Hey, look at my hot ass girlfriend! Aren't you jealous?" But we don't enjoy being nothing but a trophy girl

12) Nicknames like "Babe, or darling" are safe to call just about any girl. But beware of "Princess or Angel". Some girls will take offense to this thinking you are calling them to innocent or incapable of taking care of themselves.

13) Speaking of nicknames, almost every girl has ONE nickname that they just love to be called

14) Most girls will drop lots of hints to tell you that they like you, but won't come right out and say" I like you" or "I love you". If you think they like you, there is a good chance they do.

15) Scenario time! -You like a girl named Ashley, Ashley has a friend named Brenda. Brenda comes up you in the hall and asks "Do you like Ashley?"

More often than not in this scenario Ashley asked Brenda to ask you because she is to shy to ask you herself. And even if she didn't the first thing Brenda is going to do with your answer is tell Ashley. Now you are thinking "WHAT!? NO!! DON"T TELL HER THAT!!!" but in reality, this is a good thing. Because there is a good chance she already likes you. And if she doesn't, she will now be looking at you in a different way, and let me tell you. It's a lot easier to fall for a guy if you already know they like you. So its safe. So go ahead and tell Brenda that you like Ashley. Take a chance.

16) Girls hate it when guys say perverted things.

17) Girls love to feel special, even though they might not show it

18) Girls talk about everything with their girl friends. So unless you tell us not to tell them about something, they WILL know about it within 3 days. And if you are the girl's boyfriend, that means, you're possibly 90% of their conversation. And believe me, trash talking takes up most of it, unless you're a Greek god, which you're not...

19) Girls hate guys with bad hygiene.

20) Girls love it when a guy pulls them close by the waist

21) Most girls like a guy that will willing dance with them, even if he doesn't know how

22) Usually, when a girl is sarcastically mean to you, it means they're attracted to you, but are afraid that they'll be showing too much

23) A kiss on the hand with the right timing can be a REAL TURN-ON

24) Some girls can think about their crushes for 18+ hours straight. No exaggeration

25) When a guy says something really sentimental, girls will remember it forever

26) Girls get embarrassed easily, even if guys don't know what the hell just happened.

27) Girls daydream about their crushes ALL the time. They just don't show it.

28) When a girl is upset and wants you to listen, she wants you to listen. She doesn't need you to fix it or tell her how to. She just wants you to listen.

29) When a girl is crying, she feels a lot safer if you pull her close and tell her that everything is going to be all right. And more likely than not, it will endear them to you more than anything else.

30) Girls love it when guys say their name

31) Girls love confidence

32) When a girl cooks for you, you know you mean a lot to her

33) Girls hate it when other girls flirt. Yet they flirt themselves too. Ah, the beauty of irony

34) We don't enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you enjoy listening.

35) Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.

36) Size does matter, but only to hoes; not girls that want relationships.

37) No matter what you say, your ex-girlfriend is a hoe to us. Not because we don't like your taste in women, because believe me WE do! its just that...we don't want to have to wonder if she is better than us. And if she is a hoe, we are better. So it makes things simple for us.

38) We are self-conscious by nature; we can't help it. But we CAN try and hide it.
39) Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it is not. Though we sometimes will tell you it is.

40) As far as you are concerned, we are beautiful at all times, and don't tell us different, unless you make it sound like a compliment (even if it isn't) Like, "You were really pretty yesterday when you wore -insert clothing/accessory here-, I think you should wear that more often"

41) Whatever you do, don't just show up at our house unexpected or at least without ringing the door bell...we run around in our underwear just like you do. And no matter how much you would like to see that, we will likely never talk to you again

42) DON'T CHEAT ON US. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be dirt.

43) We want you to beware of every male relative and all guy friends. All of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat. We just don't want you to be too obvious.

44) We enjoy being kissed by you in front of your friends. It makes us feel like you care a lot about us.

45) You don't have PMS; so don't act like you know what it's like. Don't try to understand...believe me you never will.

46) Violent statements like "If that guy keeps looking at you, I'm going to tear his head off" are appealing

47) We don't want you to say you love us if you don't mean it

48) We love it when you make eye contact with us while we talk.

49) Most girls are afraid of losing our independence to guys (for some unknown reason)

50) If you ask a girl out directly, more likely than not, she will say yes to you. Even if she only has lukewarm feelings for you, because it will give her the chance to get to know you better and get to like you even more.

51) Most girls love it when guys ask them for advice.

52) Girls like it when you tell us what you are thinking, even if you don't understand it yourself

53) After you've been dating for a while, realize that we really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond

54) There is nothing wrong with being attentive and sensitive. However, this behavior can be carried too far. You don't have to hang on our every word or give in to our every whim. The thrill of the chase doesn't end after the first successful pick-up line. If you don't present us with some minor challenges, we're likely to get bored, or worse, feel that you're creepy and obsessive.

55) Variety is the spice of life. There are patterns underlying what your woman says she likes and doesn't like. It would benefit you far more to try and discern the nature of these than to repeat everything she admits to enjoying until she no longer does

56) Most men think the chase ends once they have us, but truly it has only just began.You must work even harder to keep us then you do you earn us. We not some trophy you can earn,put on a shelf and admire. You have to care for us like the living human beings we are.(see 54)

57)WHEN WE SAY NO ITS NO, SO STOP ASKING!!!

58)If someone flirts with you, its a complement. If you're not interested, accept it but dont flirt back.

59)The woman in your life needs to hear how you feel about her, and often. Tell her now

60)All women are complicated, and it is doubtful any man will ever fully be able to understand us.But we know that, so its going to be ok.

Oh Allah

2011-08-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

Oh Allah, teach me to love others just like I love myself,
teach me to judge myself just like I judge others.
And if I have wronged anyone,
give me the courage to apologize,
and if anyone wronged me,
give me the courage to forgive
because you have taught me that forgiveness is
the highest level of strength and
revenge is the highest level of weakness.
And I ask you not to forget me in your forgiveness♥

Kenapa?

2011-08-16T16:33:00.003+08:00

sakitnya hati aku cuma tuhan yg tahu..
kenapa kau buat aku cmni?
ape salah aku dgn kau smpai kau sanggup balas aku cmni?

kau tau ke ape yg aku rasa?
kau tahu cmna rasa sakitnya hati aku sekarang ni?
aku harap kau puas hati..
terima kasih byk2 atas segalanya n ape yg kau buat kat aku ni..
smpai mati pun aku akan igt..

No Mood For Everything

2011-08-15T18:00:00.003+08:00

dunno wut to write..
dunno wut to think..
dunno wut to do..
ive got no mood for everything..
feels like just wanna lay in my bed n do nutting..

why ive become like this?
im not sure..
maybe coz of this fuck up company that i worked with..
obviously it ruin everything especially my mood..

after Paris died..
i felt like a bit lost..
dun hav someone dat i can play talk n bully with..
miss her so much..
dunno whether i shud get a new puppy or not..
been thinking bout it but i cant make up my mind..

i wanna have my old life back..
i wanna feel normal again..
god please help me settle my prob asap..
im sick n tired of it already..

to my loved ones..
please get a normal job asap..
i want u to spend more time with me like before..
life's kinda bored without you n paris by my side..

to all of u who's reading my blog..
i dun give a fuck abt whatever u guys thinking bout me..
the reason i own a blog is just because i want a place where i can write about anything and everything..
so if u guys wanna talk bad about me or use any pics or wut i wrote for a bad purpose or shitting on me..
GO FUCK YOURSELF AND DIE~!!

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2011-07-24T23:27:00.001+08:00

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Bersih 2.0?

2011-07-18T14:04:00.005+08:00

Masih terdapat ramai orang yang tidak faham bersih itu apa tetapi masih komen seperti tahu apa itu bersih. Membaca komen di ruangan blog blogger2day membuatkan aku terfikir bahawa perlu nya entry neh ditulis agar mereka yang tidak faham bersih akan berlapang dada menerima dan memahami apa itu bersih sebelum membuat keputusan yang bias.

Apa itu bersih?

bersih ialah satu kempen. Ia bukan parti politik. Oleh itu ia tidak memerlukan ROS dan apa2 pendaftaran sekalipun. Anggap sahaja kempen 1malaysia sebagai contoh. Sepertimana najib kempenkan 1malaysia untuk menyatupadukan rakyat [itu alasan najib, tetapi bukan itu yang akal aku tafsir] malaysia pelbagai kaum.

Apa kempen bersih?

Kempen bersih ialah membantu menambahbaikpulihkan sistem SPR. 8 perkara bawah neh di tuntut ;

1. BERSIHKAN SENARAI UNDI <-- Terdapat kecelaruan maklumat dalam sistem spr sendiri. Ini ialah salah satu contoh. Jadi kita minta SPR bersihkan senarai undi mereka. Kita tidak tuduh SPR kotor. Contoh ;

Bersih : Saya nampak ada kotoran di belakang baju awak lah!

SPR : Yeke? Mana2, saya tak perasan pun.

Bersih : Ada di belakang awak, mari saya tolong bersihkan.

SPR : Terima kasih ya. Lain kali saya akan lihat sendiri di cermin supaya masalah yang sama tidak berulang lagi.

Kita nampak ada kecelaruan maklumat, kita bagitau SPR supaya dia betulkan. Simple. Kita bukan marah + tuduh + fitnah + atau nak perang.

2. MENREFORMASI UNDI POS <-- Sistem undi pos yang ada ini tidak relevan. Aku ada saudara yang bekerja sebagai askar. Dia tidak pernah mengundi. Dia masih seorang askar sehingga ke hari neh. Dan dia tahu bahawa undi dia adalah reserved untuk BN. Bukan kah ini negara demokrasi? Jangan gunakan undi pos untuk hal sendiri. Bagi peluang kepada mereka untuk memilih dan memangkah apa yang mereka sukai.

Jangan jumpa / meeting dengan mereka sehari sebelum dan selepas undi pos. Kenapa perlu "nasihat" supaya mereka sedar bahawa mereka bekerja dengan siapa, makan duit siapa, kena kenang budi dan sebagainya. Jangan. Bagi mereka pilih apa yang mereka mahu. Jangan ugut dan jangan paksa. Sebab itu sistem undi pos seharusnya dihapuskan. Biarlah mereka mengundi sesiapa yang mereka suka dan perkara itu haruslah dirahsia bagi menjaga privacy masing2.

3. GUNA DAKWAT KEKAL <-- Kita mahukan penggunaan dakwat kekal. Perlu supaya tidak berlaku pemanipulasi. Kita tidak mahu satu individu boleh mengundi di seratus tempat yang sama. Selepas dia mengundi, kita cop dia. Biar kita tahu bahawa dia telah mengundi di satu2 kawasan dan tidak boleh mengundi lagi di mana2 kawasan yang lain.

4. MASA KEMPEN MINIMA 21 HARI <-- kita mohon masa kempen yang panjang supaya kita boleh bersedia untuk berkempen. Itu sahaja.

5. AKSES MEDIA YANG BEBAS DAN ADIL <-- Kita mahukan media yang bebas dan telus. Kita bukan mahu media yang bodek satu2 parti. Kita tak perlukan media pro pembangkang dan sebagainya. kita cuma mahukan media adil yang melaporkan kes berdasarkan fakta. Itu sahaja. kita tak minta media menipu dan menfitnah mana2 individu demi kita tetapi kita cuma minta media bersikap telus dan adil. Adakah permintaan ini berat dan sukar bagi SPR?

Peranan media sangat penting untuk menyampaikan maklumat direct kepada rakyat. Apatah lagi media arus perdana dipelopori oleh pro kerajaan atas pelbagai sekatan dan tekanan polisi kerajaan terhadap mereka. Ibarat sistem AUKU. Kita mahukan sekatan neh di hapuskan. Laporkan yang jujur dan benar sahaja. Susah sangat ke?

6. KUKUHKAN INSTITUSI AWAM <-- Institusi awam harus dibebaskan daripada kekangan dan peraturan yang tidak munasabah. Dalam erti kata lain, tangan ghaib tidak patut timbul dan masuk campur dalam apa2 hal yang melibatkan kepentingan rakyat dan dasar negara untuk mempengaruhi keputusan dan tindakan agar merasionalkan tindakan yang salah.

7. HENTIKAN RASUAH <-- Seringkali berlaku rasuah dan penyelewengan dalam kempen pilihanraya. Benda itu sangat terang dan terbukti banyak kali. Oleh itu kita minta SPR alert dan faham bahawa rasuah ini sangat bahaya. Ianya ialah penyakit. Rasuah boleh merosakkan dan membinasakan negara.

Sepertimana yang kita alami sekarang, kesan akubat rasuah. Disebabkan rasuah lah kita lihat pelbagai projek mega terabai, bangunan runtuh, projek yang tak lulus qc tapi di approved dan macam2 lagi. Terlalu banyak. Andai wakil rakyat menang dengan cara rasuah sudah tentulah dia akan gunakan cara yang sama untuk kekalkan kuasa dan ketika berkuasa, sudah tentu dia akan merasuah dan memberi rasuah. Akhirnya yang menjadi mangsa ialah rakyat jelata.

8. HENTIKAN POLITIK KOTOR <-- Inilah amalan yang kita mahu SPR faham. Amalan neh tidak bersih dan tidak boleh diamalkan. Politik kotor dengan menyerang peribadi, menfitnah, mengaibkan, mencabut banner, melarang pembangkang berceramah dan berkempen politik, menutup kawasan ceramah, menggunakan polis untuk menghentikan ceramah, sengaja tak beri permit ceramah, sempadankan semula kawasan, dan macam2 lagi lah benda yang tidak sepatut timbul.

Di negara yang demokrasi neh kita minta agar spr izinkan kita bertanding secara adil dengan pihak yang lagi satu. Apa salahnya bertanding secara adil dan saksama? Bukanlah kita meminta perkara yang bukan2. Kita cuma minta jauhi amalan politik kotor dan kita bertanding secara adil.

Sekarang sudah faham? Baiklah apakah anda boleh bersama bersih ataupun tidak?

Bersih diketuai oleh AMBIGA. Ambiga ialah orang kafir. Ambiga menyokong murtad lina joy.

Ya. Pengerusi bersih ialah ambiga. Ambiga ialah orang bukan islam. Ambiga menyokong lina joy selepas dia murtad selama 8 tahun. Maksudnya disini ialah ;

lina joy murtad selepas 8 tahun baru jumpa ambiga. Dan ambiga tiada kena mengena dengan lina joy sehinggalah berlangsungnya satu forum memeluk islam. Ini bermaksud selepas lina joy murtad lapan tahun dia jumpa ambiga. Jadi selama lapan tahun neh siapa yang murtadkan lina joy? Lina joy sendiri. Dia sendiri yang murtadkan diri dia dulu, kini dan mungkin akan datang.

Ambiga bukan orang islam. Tak aneh apabila dia jumpa orang murtad dan dia menyokong mereka. Sama seperti kita. Apabila kita jumpa mereka yang memeluk islam sudah tentulah kita sokong mereka. Contoh situasi ;

1. Orang islam = murtad masuk kristian = jumpa geng kristian = geng2 kristian defend dia

2. Orang kristian = masuk islam = jumpa geng islam = geng2 islam bela dia

Ini situasi yang normal. Belajar menerima kenormalan neh. Yang tak normal apabila ada orang islam sendiri yang sokong murtadnya lina joy. Siapa mereka itu? Mereka itu individu yang membiarkan lina joy murtad selama 8 tahun tanpa apa2 pemantauan dan pertolongan. Siapa mereka? Ahli keluarga lina joy ada jawapan nya. Tak boleh salahkan kerajaan [umno] dan perlembagaan semata2. Iman itu terletak atas diri sendiri. Kalau kita nampak ahli keluarga yang murtad, kita kena bantu. Cari jalan untuk selamatkan mereka, bukan biarkan mereka bertahun2 sehingga mereka jauh tersesat ke dalam.

Sampai kita nak selamatkan lagi pun dah tak boleh. Benda neh bila sampai ke pengetahuan masyarakat pada tahun 2007 [tak silap] dah tak boleh ubah apa2 sebab lina joy dah murtad selama 8 tahun tanpa pengawasan dan berhasil tukar ic daripada nama azalina kepada nama orang kristian.

Apa yang kerajaan boleh buat pada ketika itu ialah dakwahkan lina joy tetapi tiada peruntukan undang2 seperti itu. Bila kerajaan sendiri tiada ubat untuk mengubati maka disini lah kerajaan dikecam. Kita tidak kecam kerajaan kerana lina joy murtad. Tetapi kerajaan dikecam kerana tidak mampu mengubati kemurtadan lina joy. Ada beza disitu.

Ambiga ada kaitan dengan IFC. Ini bahaya.

Aku tidak tahu hal ini secara jelas. Yang aku tahu ambiga dan paklah masing2 menerima memo. Itu sahaja. Belum lagi nampak apa2 perkara yang boleh mengaitkan ambiga secara langsung dengan IFC sehingga kini. Akan datang aku tidak tahu. Apa pun IFC memang wajar ditentang oleh orang islam. Perjuangan bersih dan IFC ialah dua perjuangan yang berbeza.

Jangan bawa sentimen keagamaan dalam perjuangan bersih kerana bersih memperjuangkan pilihanraya yang bebas dan adil. Bukan muslim yang boleh keluar masuk islam sesuka ahti. Tiada dalam mana2 8 kempen bersih menyatakan apa2 perjuangan IFC. Dan SIS = salah seorang penyokong bersih dan IFC = marina mahathir = anak mahathir = ada kaitan dengan kerajaan. Sila lihat isu neh dengan lebih meluas dan adil.

Jadi, boleh sokong bersih sekarang?

Bersih ada kaitan dengan komunis!

Arh sudah. Tadi murtad + lina joy + ifc. Kini alasan baru pula. Bersih tiada kaitan dengan komunis. Boleh menolak bersih. Tidak salah.Tetapi harus menolak atas sebab yang benar dan bukan sebab rekaan. Mengaitkan bersih dengan komunis <-- ini mitos. Fakta nya ialah bersih tiada kaitan dengan komunis.

Bersih ialah pertubuhan haram!

Bersih bukan pertubuhan ataupun parti politik. Bersih ialah kempen sama seperti kempen 1malaysia. Oleh itu tiada pendaftaran diperlukan.

Bersih agenda yahudi !

Arhh lagiii.. sampai bila nak habis? Bersih tiada kaitan dengan yahudi. Sama seperti isu komunis yang mana kerajaan tiada bukti bahawa bersih = komunis, maka seperti itu jugalah isu bersih = yahudi, tiada bukti pun! Hanya cakap2 nak menakutkan dan menghilangkan sokongan sahaja.

Bersih terima dana asing!

Bersih terima dana tetapi bukan dari pihak luar sebaliknya dari rakyat malaysia yang mana dana itu digunakan untuk melancarkan gerak kerja dan kempen2 bersih.

Bersih diperalatkan oleh ambiga untuk berkuasa dan merampas kuasa orang melayu!

Selepas berlalunya bersih 2.0, najib dan barisan pimpinan bercakap bahawa anwar memperalatkan bersih untuk berkuasa. Jadi dimanakah tuduhan yang betul sebenarnya? Bagi satu tuduhan yang betul maka barulah aku boleh menjawab. Agak pening nak menjawab isu neh sebab, kejap2 ambiga peralatkan pas, kejap2 anwar peralatkan bersih, kejap2 pembangkang peralatkan bersih.

Jadi yang mana satu betul? Ke, kesemua tuduhan di atas? Jika ya, maka jawapan nya adalah sama untuk kesemua soklan dan tuduhan iaitu

TIDAK!

Sebaliknya rakyat memperalatkan bersih kerana kita nak kan bersuara untuk ketidakadilan disini. Kita marah barang naik. Kita marah gaji kecik. Kita marah ekonomi teruk. Kita marah kerajaan rasuah. Kita marah itu ini, berbekalkan sentimen itu lah kita memilih untuk bersama bersih disamping kita juga suka dan setuju dengan tuntutan 8 perkara dalam bersih.

Ini kerana kita percaya bahawa antara punca2 kesusahan kita pada hari neh ialah disebabkan berlakunya penindasan dan ketidakadilan dalam sistem pilihanraya yang memungkinkan memenangkan wakil rakyat jahat sekaligus menindas warga marhaen.

Isu mengangu-gugat kuasa orang melayu tidak patut timbul kerana perlembagaan sudah menjanjikan hanya orang islam boleh menjadi perdana menteri. Maka usah khuatir. Bukan kah anda yang bilang melayu = islam kan? Heh.

Sebelum bersih, berlaku pelbagai tuduhan bahawa bersih ada kaitan dengan keganasan, motolov cocktail dan sebagainya.

Jadi? Adakah polis menemui apa2 bukti selepas bersih berlalu? Tidak bukan. Jadilah orang yang berani. Berani buat kajian sendiri. Apa salahnya memahami susur galur bersih. Jangan jadi orang yang suka menolak. Belum apa2 dah haram. Itu dap. Itu pas. Itu sesat. Itu komunis. Itu liwat dan sebagainya. Jangan. Masing2 ada akal.

Gunakan ia untuk menilai. Tanya kawan2 yang pergi demo bersih. Apakah mereka murtad dan menerima wang yahudi selepas demo? Apakah ada polis yang kena bom? Apakah ada mana2 kedai dipecahkan? Jalanraya sesak dan ditutup oleh pihak polis di atas kefobiaan mereka yang melampau. Walaupun sudah berulangkali kita menegaskan bahawa pihak polis boleh tentukan mana2 jalan yang kita patut guna untuk menuju ke stadium tetapi akhirnya hak kita dinafikan. Segala apa masalah yang dihadapi oleh rakyat malaysia pada hari itu, sama sekali bukan datang dari pendemo bersih.

Perjuangan pendemo bersih ialah untuk anda dan masa depan anda semua. Bukan semua berani turun demo dan bukan semua mampu pergi berdemo. Apa salahnya anda menghargai orang yang telah berdemo untuk masa depan anda yang lebih baik? Apa salahnya untuk anda menerima dan memahami kenapa mereka berdemo? Perjuangan bersih ialah untuk kepentingan kita semua. Ya, untuk kepentingan rakyat malaysia.

Oleh itu daripada kita bertelagah untuk hal yang tak perlu, tidak pasti dan fitnah, Marilah kita rakyat bersatu untuk bersihkan negara neh dari segala korupsi dan helah manusia2 yang rakus. Tak salah dan tiada sesiapa pun rugi jika kita sama2 bergabung untuk bersih. Bukan kah "bersih" itu dituntut dalam islam?

aku tak faham dgn sesetengah orang yang masih tak faham lagi bersih tu apa.

lepas tu nak kaitkan plak bersih dgn ambiga - lina joy - IFC..

WTF???

igt orang skrg sokong bodoh2 je ke..

orang sokong tuntutan bersih tu sendiri..

bukannya sokong ambiga tu membabi buta..

contoh..kalau korang tgk bola Malaysia vs Jepun..

Korang sokong Malaysia..maksudnya korang sokong PM Malaysia ke? Sokong gomen?

Ramai gak yang bodoh kan kat luar sana..

Tak tahu beza..kesian korang..

...

2011-07-06T21:44:00.001+08:00

Takyah cari aku dah..
Aku tak nak tengok muka kau lagi..

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:(

2011-06-22T09:33:00.002+08:00

ntah la..

xtau aku nk luahkan mcmane..

mcm2 bnda jadi..

bila life n family aku dh okay..

bnda lain lak jadi..

hati sakit..badan sakit..semua sakit..

cuma beberapa org yg terdekat je tau ape yg terjadi dlm hidup aku..

bertimpa2 ujian n dugaan yg dtg dr Allah..

kata kwn2 mungkin DIA tahu yg aku kuat n mampu tuk hadapi sbb tu DIA bagi aku dugaan yg mcm ni..

mungkin jugak ni balasan atas2 kesilapan n dosa2 yg aku dah buat..

semoga hari2 yg akan dtg lebih baik dari hari ini dan sebelumnya..

p/s: thx to all my GFs who always try to make me happy n comfort me when im down..i LOVE you guys!! ;)

1st Day At Work

2011-06-07T09:22:00.002+08:00

Well, what can i say?

My 1st day at work is quite boring actually..

All my colleagues is chinese..this is just a small office..

Just around 20people..they're all support team..engineers..

But they're all friendly tho..

Shui Wen the girl that i suppose to replace is still here..

So basically i got no work coz she still haven't finish most of her work and she haven't yet create a handover list to me..

Her last day will be on 15th June..

Because they're all engineers so they're quite nerdy..

Just sit at their place..doing their work..

The office is quiet most of the time..

Dats what makes me so sleepy.. (-.-)"

Hopefully Shui Wen can pass me some work asap..

As im bored to death at my cubicle..

Feels like want to puke whenever i look at this laptop monitor..

bluergh~!!

Will update later..bye guys!

STOP!

2011-06-02T12:18:00.002+08:00

BITCH!

Hello June!

2011-06-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

well last 2 days is da happiest day of my life..
got a phone call n i got da job!!
Alhamdulillah.. ;)
i will be reporting to work on Monday 6th June..
Hopefully June will be a better month for me than May..
InsyaAllah..

Last friday i supposed to go back to my hometown as im boring as hell here..
he's at penang and my housemate are all working..
only get to see them at nite..
while waiting for my car engine to heat up, i called him just to tell him dat im otw to go back BP..
then he said why dun u just go back tomorrow?
i asked him why n he didnt answered me..
i said if u dun tell me then i still wanna go back BP today..
then he told me that actually he's otw back to KL to surprise me..
he didnt know dat i wanna go back to my hometown and he's already reached Ipoh..
i was happy as hell but i just pretend that im still angry..huhu
actually he got 2 weddings last weekend..
his bestfriend's wedding is on saturday and his cousin's wedding is on sunday..
but still, he chose to be with me instead..
thank you so much for choosing me and spending ur time with me love.. ;)

p/s : I ♥ you, no matter how many fights we've had. I will always ♥ you.

Just want u to know..

2011-05-23T22:48:00.005+08:00

i just want u to know that i love u so much..
so much till there's no words no numbers can describe it..
we've been hurting each other from the beginning coz of our past..
im trying really hard to forget all that so that i can build new memories with u..
i hope u do the same too..
coz im tired of fighting n hating each other..
i know im not living in a fairytale but i just wanna simple life n be happily ever after with you..
is that too much too ask for?

"Yaa Allah, Seandainya Telah Kau Catatkan.. Dia Milikku, Tercipta Untuk Diriku.. Satukanlah Hatinya Dengan Hatiku.. Titipkanlah Kebahagiaan... Yaa Allah, Ku Mohon Apa Yang Telah Kau Kurniakan.. Ku Harap Dia Adalah Yang Terbaik Buatku.. Kerna Engkau Tahu Segala Isi Hatiku.. Pelihara Daku Dari Kemurkaanmu.. Yaa Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah.. Berikanlah Aku Kekuatan Juga Harapan... Untuk Membina Diri Yang Lesu Tak Bermaya... Semaikan Setulus Kasih Dijiwa.. Ku Berserah Kepadamu, Kurniakanlah Aku Pasangan Yang Beriman... Bisa Menemani Aku, Supaya Aku Dan Dia Dapat Mengarungi Sungai Kehidupan, ke Muara Cinta Yang Engkau Redhai... Yaa Allah, Yang Maha Pengasih.. Engkau Saja Pemeliharaku.. Dengarkan Rintihan Hambamu Ini... Jangan Engkau Biarkan ku Sendiri.. Agarku Bisa Bahagia... Gantikanlah Yang Hilang... Tumbuhkan Yang Telah Patah... Ku Inginkan Bahagia.. Di Dunia Dan Akhirat... PadaMu Yaa Allah, Kumohon Segala... Hanya Padamu Sajalah Yaa Allah, Aku Meminta Dan Berdo'a... Semoga Engkau Mengabulkan do'a ku Ini... Amin... "

Dunno how..

2011-05-16T17:06:00.003+08:00

this month is sure an unlucky month for me..

early of the month ive got a punctured car tyre..

my car battery totally rosak yesterday..need to replace with a new one..

nearly lost my love..still trying to patch things up..

almost lost my job..

currently im looking for a new job asap..

lots of problem..lots of thing in my mind..lots of feelings in my heart..

im totally blur n just follow the flow..

i dunno how i want to express actually what im feeling rite now..

im numb..

i can only pray to God that He will show me the right way..

sometimes i just feel like i give up with my life..

i dun care whatever want to happen next..

i just dun care..

what i noe is..

i just need a place to rest my head..

but till when???

I Love My Baby

2011-04-13T13:26:00.006+08:00

I love my baby so much..

everyday i cant wait to come back from work to see her because..

i cant wait..

to see my baby's face when she's excited see me coming back from work..

to see her running towards me when i call her name..

to see her licking at me and jumping at me..

to play with her..running, scare, etc

to hold her..

to pamper her..

holding her in my arms and talk to her.. (this is what i love the most)

hugging her eventho she smells bad..huhu

kissing her..

Eventho she's stuborn and quite hard to train coz she easily lose her focus (i noe she inherited that from me), i still love her wit all my heart..

Paris, if u ever, ever understand what mama said to u all this while. I just want u to noe that i love u so much and i promise to take care of u as good as i can and also i will try my very best to be with u until the end..

This was taken from 10 Promises to My Dog, it is a japanese movie. I'll definitely will look for this movie and watch it. ;)

Dear mama & papa,

1. Give me time to understand wut u want of me

2. Place your trust in me. It's crucial to my well-being.

3. Be aware that however you treat me, I'll never forget it

4. Before you scold me for being lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me.

5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when it's speaking to me.

6. Remember before you hit me, I have teeth that could hurt you, but that I choose not to bite you.

7. Take care of me when I get old.

8. You have your work, your entertainment, and your friends. I have only you.

9. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you will be painful for me.

10.Go with me on difficult journeys. Everything is easier for me when you are there. Remember I love you ...

From your lovely baby

p/s: sweet rite? if only we cud really understand what they want n what they said..

Missing You?

2011-04-01T12:07:00.002+08:00

I DON'T MISS HER, I MISS WHO I THINK SHE WAS.

my reply wud be,

I DON'T MISS HIM, I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HIM AT ALL.

;)

Pissed Off!

2011-03-28T02:24:00.004+08:00

im so fucking pissed off with some people..

some people who thinks they noe better than everyone else..

some people who thinks that they are so damn fucking good and innocent..

some people who loves to give you advises but forgot to look at themselves in the mirror..

some people who is selfish and only think about themselves..

some people who act nice in front of you but behind you they are actually assholes..

some people who just loves pissing you off..

so..to these people..

why don't you just fuck yourself and die!

take a good look at yourself first before you can talk bad about other people..

if you think you are so fucking innocent and good..can you answer my question..

can you guarantee me that there's a place for you in heaven?

p/s: sebelum kau nk ceramah n maki aku..ape kate kau pegi asah and kasi perfect dlu ilmu agama kau tu.. ;)

Mood Swing

2011-03-18T15:25:00.002+08:00

i dunno why these few days my mood is not so good..

kinda hav mood swing..

sometimes my mood is okay..

sometimes i can get angry so easily..

dunno why..

maybe because my PMS is coming..huhu

to those who feel upset with my attitude these few days..

am truly sorry..

i didnt mean it..

Potty Training A Shih Tzu

2011-03-16T16:41:00.003+08:00

Still remember my last post about potty training my Paris?
If you don't, please click here.

When i was browsing the internet, i came accross this website about Shih Tzu and how to train them. So, i just like to share this article with ya'll.

The 5 keys to your success are :

1 - When your dog gets up, take her to the potty place

2 - Feed your dog on a regular schedule which will eventually be twice a day, about 10-12 hrs apart. After he eats or drinks anything, take her to the potty place.

3 - After your dog plays or exercise, take her to the potty place.

4- Withhold water for 2 to 4hrs before your dog goes to bed.

5 - Just prior to go to bed, take him to the potty place.

Will try this steps. Hopefully it works!

;)

Depression is..

2011-03-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

Depression is Loving someone with nothing in return,
Depression is Slowly living instead of jumping head first,
Depression is Acknowledging the mistake but without learn,
Depression is Not trying, giving into your lifes curse.

Depression is Cutting and cutting thinking you cant stop,
Depression is Staying quiet thinking no-one will care,
Depression is Floating around with the desire to drop,
Depression is Ignoring the people who always seem to be there.

Depression is Trying to end the life youve been given,
Depression is Watching other people watch you,
Depression is Giving up instead of being hard driven,
Depression is Depression, do you feel it too?

New Job ;)

2011-03-11T22:26:00.002+08:00

hurmm...

what can i say bout my new job ya..

i work as a Banquet Sales Officer at a clubhouse in seksyen U9 Shah Alam..

meaning that i need to promote the clubhouse so that club members or outsiders want to make events or parties there..

im specifically at a domestic part..

that means im handling parties..weddings..etc

while dyla handling all the corporate part like seminars..conference..AGM..etc

rite now the clubhouse still not fully opening..

currently what we hav is racket games (badminton, tennis, squash) and gym..

in the near future we will hav swimming pool..children fun pool..table tennis..futsal court.. children gameroom..paintball (maybe)..heli pad..children playground..kayak..banquet hall..coffee house..convenient store..lounge and a lot more that still under discussion..

the clubhouse is an open concept resort style..

located beside a lake..

very nice environment..far away from all the noise and all the hassle..

very relaxing and quiet place to rest ur body and ur mind..

will update the pics later..

IF YOU GUYS WANNA HAV BIRTHDAY PARTIES..WEDDINGS OR ANY KIND OF EVENTS, KINDLY CONTACT ME.. ;)

She Really Pissed Me Off Tonight

2011-02-27T20:55:00.004+08:00

I dunno what else shud i do..

She wee2 on my mattress tonight..

Last 2 days she wee2 on the sofa..

Arghhh..

We already trained her to wee2 and poo2 outside..

sometimes she do it sometimes she dun..

sometimes she even wee2 n poo2 all over the house..

If u guys whoever read this hav a shih tzu at home..

pls tell me how to train her..

Boring Weekend

2011-02-27T14:07:00.002+08:00

Haihhh...
What a boring weekend im having..
Housemates all working..
Bf going back hometown..
Home alone with Paris n Lady..
Wanna go out with frens but feel kinda lazy..
Just stay at home listening to songs..

What shud I do? What shud I do?

Ps: blog update via blogger-droid.. ;)

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Meet Maznah, the Muslim dog-trainer

2011-02-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

It was five abandoned puppies that changed her life. And now Maznah believes that working with dogs is her calling.

PETALING JAYA: Whenever she takes her dogs for a walk, she is bound to attract curious stares. And when she reveals that she is a part-time dog trainer, eyeballs pop out of their sockets.This is because Maznah Mohd Yusof, 36, is a Malay-Muslim.

Hailing from Johor, the US-trained engineer said that her family never told her that dogs are “haram” (forbidden) for Muslims.“There are different school of thoughts in Islam. Here, we follow the Shafie school of thought which does not say dog is haram but merely asks us to cleanse ourselves after touching a wet dog.”Asked how her family felt about her “calling” to train dogs, Maznah said that most of them do not complain. “But one cousin asked if I was still a Muslim.”

Maznah, who holds a bachelor’s degree in industrial engineering, said she never enjoyed working as an engineer and was searching for something more “satisfying”.

“I worked as an industrial engineer from 1998 till 2007 in Penang. I believe that you must do things you’re passionate about and my job then was not giving me this satisfaction.”

Maznah’s fate took a furry twist in late 2007 when she and her housemate stumbled upon five abandoned puppies at the car park in Queensbay Mall.

“Two of them looked almost lifeless, so we immediately took them to a nearby veterinarian. When they recovered, the veterinarian suggested that we deliver them to SPCA.

“But we were shocked when SPCA told us that it might put the puppies to sleep since they are too young to be taken care of. They were just two-weeks-old. That’s when we decided to look after them ourselves and give them out for adoption after a month,” she said.

Heeding the call

However, Maznah grew attached to the puppies and decided to rear them. She named the quintet Yusni, Golek, Ciku, Oren and Ross. After moving to Rawang with her dogs in the same year, Maznah realised that for some strange reason, stray dogs were drawn to her house.

“Even those with dogs that are normally unfriendly to others, are surprised when their dogs are friendly with me. Then, I realised it was a sign that I should be working with dogs.”

She started by doing her own research on how to train dogs, gathering information from books and the Internet. “I learnt a lot from a book called Cesar’s Way penned by Mexican dog trainer Cesar Milan.”On the training she provides, Maznah said that she is focused on basic obedience training and relationship building for now.“Dogs also need exercise and discipline. Owners must realise that dogs are very energetic. So if you do not take them for exercise, that’s when they start giving problems like biting shoes.“As for discipline, it is important that owners set certain routines as dogs like consistency. For example, my dogs know that 11pm is time for them to rest. I will just open their cages and they will enter into it themselves,” she said, adding that dogs are similar to children.

Based on her experience, Maznah believes that a dog is a “reflection” of its owner. “I knew one dog owner who was calm and patient. And these qualities rubbed off on his dog as well.”

Therefore, she added, it is vital for owners to spend time with their dogs to build a strong bond.

“I can say that it is the owner that needs the training rather than the dog. Owners must take responsibility to train the dogs, as trainers like me only come once a week. From there, owners need to follow up with the training to ensure the dogs get it. As I said, dogs like consistency.”

Maznah said people should stop thinking of dogs as just another animal. “They say that dogs are a man’s best friend. For me, they are my sidekicks and protector.”

“Owning a dog is a big responsibility, the dogs demand a lot of attention. Remember, it’s a partnership and there needs to be a lot of give and take.”As far as Maznah is concerned, dogs are the most amazing creatures. To illustrate her point, she quotes a cartoon strip. “I saw this some time back, it said ‘dogs think of you as their God, while cats think they are your God.”

Source : http://www.freemalaysiatoday.com/2011/02/20/meet-maznah-the-muslim-dog-trainer/

Hari-Hari Saket Hati..Saket Hati Hari-Hari..

2011-02-26T20:21:00.003+08:00

Hari-hari nak saketkn hati aku..

satu hari x saketkn hati aku x leh ke??

dah la balik2 psal benda yg sama..

kalau aku saketkn hati kau..

tau plak kau x leh trimakn..

aku penah bgtau dlu..

sekali kau saketkn hati aku..

sepuluh kali aku kan buat ko lg saket hati..

so jangan nak tanya aku kenapa aku saketkn hati kau..

FAHAM???!!

Its Been Awhile

2011-02-26T15:32:00.005+08:00

hey guys..

i think its been awhile since i post anything in my blog..

since 2009 i think..

suddenly i think that i wanna activate my blog again..

dunno why..

maybe coz this is the only place that i can express my feelings and my thoughts..

hmmm...

so whats new ya..

i got a puppy which i named her Paris..this march she will be 5 months old..

she's a shih tzu breed..tri-color..white-brown-black..

will upload her pics later..

got a new job..a better job..

banquet sales officer.. ;)

got a new place to stay..much better place!

got swimming pool..gym..jogging track..badminton court..

what else ya..

cant think of any..

update my blog again later..

daaaa~!!!

hahaha...LMFAO

2009-11-06T13:36:00.001+08:00

hahaha...
korang ni memang buat lawak la weh..
gelak-gelak aku dengar..
adeh...
manusia..manusia..
hate me?
i dun give a damn.. =)

If we ever...

2009-11-05T11:05:00.001+08:00

I've been fragile for a long time
A big old hole inside my heart
And I was searching through the valley
Stumbled on love in the dark

Was afraid to try but afraid to never know
What it feels like to be loved
Had a hill to climb
but the places we could go
Oh, I gotta know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind know, would the pain go, oh
So if we ever, fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I was empty it was all gone
The birds would sing but made no sound
Till I met you, found I was all wrong
You picked me up right off the ground

Was afraid to try, and afraid i'd fall again
crashing down from the sky, you know
Had a hill to climb, but with you I my heart will mend
That's the one thing, we all wanna know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind blow, would the pain go, oh
So if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I just wanna know, I just wanna know
tell me tell me so, baby I just wanna know
(repeat x3)

So if we ever fell in love
would the wind know, would the pain go, oh
(yeah) so if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

So if we ever fell in love
oh, I wanna know what it feels like to be loved

Quarter life crisis?

2009-10-29T15:20:00.002+08:00

i spoken to one of my friends bout my feelings and what im going through now and he told me im having the quarter life crisis..i only heard bout the mid life crisis..so i google bout it a lil bit and this is wut i found..its so true..

The Quarter-Life Crisis
by unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

p/s: so wut do u think? when oh when this crisis will be over? huhu

For Someone..

2009-10-23T09:34:00.001+08:00

im bored

2009-10-21T20:30:00.001+08:00

I'm bored to death
Can that be even true
Well, I am still alive
I need something to do

I gotta find some interest
But I don't know what
I can't think of anything
My mind's door is shut

huhu ;p

13 October 2009

2009-10-13T15:06:00.004+08:00

Love Story theme song - piano version

Romance de Amor - piano version

this 2 songs really beautiful..i can cry listening to them..they really touch my heart..hope u guys enjoy it..

is it because of my PMS?

2009-10-12T21:50:00.004+08:00

hmm i dunno why..

suddenly i feel so stress and feel like crying..

is it because my pms is coming?

i hate this feeling..

i wanna run away from all this..

run away from all the problems..

from all the people..

i juz wanna be in a place where i can be alone..

yeah..i noe..i am all alone now..

i wanna be somewhere or anywhere else but not here..

i juz wanna be in a place like an island perhaps..

a beach or some place quite..

quite from all the noise..

where there will be only me..white sandy beach..

the sound of the waves..the moon and the stars..

with the accompany of a few loved ones wud be great..

i noe i am strong..

but the loneliness and the emptiness inside me is killing me slowly..

dear god..if u can hear me..

please send me someone from above who can love me as i am..

someone who will love me like i love him/her..

someone who can care for me like i care for him/her..

someone who understand me better than anyone else..

someone who will never judge me but will guide me thru all the way..

someone who will stand beside me and never put me aside..

someone who will love me eternally..

i noe it's easier said than done..

'i will always be there for you'

'you always have me'

i heard that a lot..

i noe i have a great circle of families..frens and a few close frens..

i noe u guys will always try to be there for me..

and i appreciate that..thank you..

but yeah..u see me smiling and laughing..

talking and giggling..

singing and dancing..

flirting and enjoying my life..

but do u noe deep down inside of me?

i think no one will ever noe..

i am not the type of girl who loves to tell anyone bout how i feel..

i am not the type of girl who loves to share..

i am exactly not the type of girl who u think i am..

so if u really think u noe me..

u better think twice..

i think its enuff for tonite..

i can go on babbling all nite long..

to all my families and friends..

i love you and thank you again..

only Allah will repay you..

In the making of another memory

2009-10-12T11:45:00.001+08:00

dear friends,
how's your life?
it's been a while since I heard you laughed,
I, sometimes, dream of us so clearly,
in this making of 'memory'

our past days surely are beautiful,
the things keep our memory books so full.
the things we left unchanged are so many,
in this making of 'memory'

dear friends,
where have you been?
our day, our time,
do you still have that memory?
we live our lives now, differently.
we are, but for the making of another 'memory'

=)

Alone

2009-10-12T11:36:00.001+08:00

Alone I drift away,
Alone I walk a thousand miles,
Alone I fall asleep,
Alone I stare at the sky,
Alone I sit under a tree,
Alone I cry.

Alone I dream of you,
Alone I hope and pray,
to God who is oh so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way.

Alone I drift away,
Alone I live today,
and alone I'll die someday.

Life

2009-10-12T11:23:00.003+08:00

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks

I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

Sorry

2009-10-08T17:50:00.002+08:00

my mind seems been running out of words nowadays..

so im using songs and lyrics to express my feelings..

hope u guys understand it..

i will write something when my brain is fully functioning..

well..

just for the info..

MY LIFE'S BEEN GREAT (^_^)

Feel

2009-10-08T17:45:00.000+08:00

Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I�ve been given.

I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don�t understand.

(chorus)
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
�cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I don�t wanna die,
But I ain�t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I�m preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death,
That�s why I keep on running.
Before I�ve arrived, I can see myself coming.

(chorus)
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
�cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

And I need to feel, real love
And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough.

(instrumental)

(chorus)
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in,
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after
There�s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it�s a real big place.

(instrumental)

Come and hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living,
Not sure I understand,
This role I�ve been given

Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.

Rumors

2009-10-06T11:40:00.000+08:00

Saturday, stepping into the club
The music made me wanna tell the DJ, turn it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop movin' to the sound

But, I can tell that you're watching me
And your probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?

Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do?
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun, I'm gonna live my life
(But not the way that you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures, don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to the beat like
(What?)

I gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just need a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?

Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do?
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down?
I'm only having fun, I'm gonna live my life
(But not the way that you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind
(My mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time
(Good time)

I'm tired of rumors, rumors
Followed, followed, followed, followed, followed, followed
What they?
(Followed me?)
Why can't they, they, they, they, they
They let me live?
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

p/s:to all the haters out there..hahahaha

Live like you're dying

2009-10-06T11:05:00.003+08:00

One of these days youll be
under the covers youll be
under the table and youll realize
all of your days are numbered;
all of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.
So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for more.
no no

Chorus 1:
Take every moment; you know that you own them.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

Give me a reason
to fight the feeling
that theres nothing here for me.
Cause none of its easy,
I know it wasnt meant to be.
I know its all up to me x2.
So what am I gonna do with my time?
oh

Chorus 2:
Ill take every moment, I know that I own them.
Its all up to you to do whatever you choose.

Chorus 3:
Live like youre dying and never stop trying.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

All of the moments you didnt notice;
gone in the blink of an eye.
All of the feelings you couldnt feel
no matter how you try.
oh oh

p/s:love the song..live your life to the fullest or 1 day you might regret and think how u wish u wud have done dat thing... =)

Doesn't mean anything..

2009-09-29T16:05:00.002+08:00

Used to dream bout being a millionaire, without a care
But if I'm seeing my dreams and you aren't there
Cause it's over, that just won't be fair, darling
Rather be a poor woman living on the street, no food to eat
Cause I don't want no pie if I have to cry
Cause it's over when you say goodbye

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

Now I see myself through different eyes, it's no surprise
Being alone would make you realize
When it's over, all in love is fair
I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

I know I push you away
What can I do that will say how I love
Take these material things
They don't mean nothing
It's you that I want

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone
(I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda)

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

p/s : i love da way he sings this song..makes me wanna cry..huhu

why u'r still single?

2009-09-29T02:42:00.000+08:00

Lovin' it

2009-09-28T13:21:00.002+08:00

i always cut my hair short but last friday

i trimmed my hair and rebond it...

my hair is quite long now..

trying something new..

check out my new pic at my fb.. =)

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2009-09-18T18:22:00.002+08:00

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri..semoga aidilfitri kali ini lebih baik dr yg sebelumnya..harap diampunkan segala salah dan silap..kita manusia tidak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan..

berhati-hati ketika memandu..ingatlah family tersayang... =)

16 September 2009

2009-09-16T16:51:00.005+08:00

Yes..

you might give me all the happiness in this world..

in this life..

but..

can you give me final peace in the end?

15 September 2009

2009-09-15T15:00:00.003+08:00

well my dad already been discharge from da hospital last saturday..

he's getting better..thank you all..

im deleting some people who used to be my friends

but now so called my haters from my facebook..

eventhough u guys really make me famous

and i appreciate it very much..

but i dun need u in my life..

thanks for all the hardwork dat u've done to make me famous..

all the thinking and doing things..

thanks..only Allah will repay u.. =)

11 September 2009

2009-09-11T14:44:00.002+08:00

ayah semakin sembuh..alhamdullilah..thx to all my friends and families for da supports and prayers..walaupun ayah nampak uzur dan semakin kurus tp keadaannya dah bertambah baik..semalam ayah dah boleh minum air dan sudah mula membuang air besar..arini dia sudah boleh makan..cuma dari semalam ayah mcm kna diarrhea..mungkin sbb ubat yg diberikan..lgpun cuaca di bp mmg panas betul..

actually ayah kna operate mlm isnin hari tu tp mama n ayah xnk bgtau aku sbb xnk aku drive sorg2 mlm..kesian mama kne jaga and tgu ayah operate sorg2..msti die sedih and rsa tak tertanggung..hmm terharu aku sbb time2 ayah saket cmtu pn still lg sempat pkir psal aku..sbnrnya ayah kna gastrik..gas tu dah burst up so kna operate takleh tgu lg..kata mama ayah msuk bilik operation around 1am dan keluar dalam 5am cmtu..

hari slasa tu aku smpai hosp around 9am something..aku msuk2 wad ayah baru je sedar..sedih aku tgk keadaan ayah..jarum bercucuk sana cni..kna pkai neb..kne tebuk lubang kat tepi pinggang utk kluarkn darah kotor..and de tube dimsukkn kt idung dia tuk keluarkan lendir2 maybe dari paru2..ayah kna operate kat perut..panjang juga kat tengah2 dari area bwh dada smpai la kt pusat..aku x pnah nmpk ayah kurus and saket cmni..sblm ni ayah nmpk sehat je bdn pn tough..takda la nmpk cm org umur 57 thn..tp skrg ayah nmpk uzur..sdey je aku rsa..aku tgk mata mama merah je maybe tahan nangis..aku pn tahan je air mata aku..xnak la nmpk aku nangis nnt mama msti lg sdey..i got to be strong for her..

aku pun tak sangka jaga orang sakit penat cmni..keje aku ape lg jadi driver laa..bawa and anta mama ke hospital..beli barang2 keperluan ayah..umah..mkn utk berbuka dan sebagainya..ganti mama jaga ayah bler mama blk umah..penat betul..dgn cuaca kat bp yg btul2 pnas..migrain kepala aku dibuatnya..tidur pn x ckup..badan kaki sume rsa saket2 and lemah..maklum lah bulan puasa..time buka jela bley recharge tenaga..

hari ahad aku akn blik kl semula..hopefully before that ayah dah klua hospital..takda la aku risau sgt coz jiran2 ada..ari jumaat depan bru aku blk bp semula..

ayah..semoga cepat sembuh..nanti bleh klua hospital..tak lama lg dh boleh minum and makan cm biasa..mesti ayah rasa nk mkn mcm2 kan..huhu nurul sentiasa doakan agar ayah cepat sembuh and tak saket2 lg.. =)

special thx to my cousin rose..my friends izzah..che'are..eliya..nina..min and syafiq for always trying to be there for me when i need someone..thx for the support..thx sbb slalu tnya bout my dad..i cant thx u guys enuff..all i can say is i LOVE u guys and i will try my best to be there for u one day when u need someone or me..thx again.. =)

Ayah..semoga cepat sembuh..

2009-09-08T00:59:00.004+08:00

around 5 something dpt call from mama ckp ayah masuk hospital emergency room..i was shocked..all i can asked was "why?" mama bitau ayah balik kerja then dia start sakit perut..muntah2 smpai badan lemah giler and sampai die ckp die mmg btul2 dah tak tahan sakit..my neighbour pak enal tlg antakan ayah n mama to the hospital..then aku bitau mama once doktor dh bitau wuts wrong with him tell me..aku try balik bp..

aku xtau nk watpe aku trus call tasha..tanye if aku nk blk BP bleh atau tak die teman aku..she said okay juz tell her wut time..aku ajak die coz aku tau skrg ni cuma die je kwn aku yg tak study and still not working and i thot she was my best + close fren..

so i wait n wait n wait till 6pm something still no words from mama..i called her..she said doktor bru lpas x-ray and he still in the ER..aku rasa tak sedap hati..aku trus call tasha bitau after buka gerak terus coz ayah aku still lg dlm ER...die ckp okay..rite now die kat saloon after buka she'll sms me..

aku risau sgt coz ayah tak pernah saket smpai cmni..die tak pernah masuk hospital..aku takut aku nangis je bila tgk die esok dgn jarum bercucuk sana sini..aku tak smpai hati..kalau boleh biar aku gnti tmpt die..bia aku yg saket..aku syg ayah dgn mama sgt2..smpai aku doa bia tuhan cabut dlu nyawa aku dari dorang..aku tak sanggup hilang dorang..they're my EVERYTHING..

nearly 8 tasha sms bitau die baru nk makan..kedai sume full...aku ckp okay but tlg cpat sket..pjalanan jauh bknnye sekejap..aku xnk smpai mlm2 sgt..she said okay..nearly 9pm die sms aku ckp dah settle makan lg 10mins aku leh gerak pegi rumah die..aku pn gerak la pegi umah die..bila aku dah sampai kat OU..dah nak sampai kat umah die baru die bitau aku yg bapak die tak bagi die teman aku..im like SO FUCKING MAD MANNN!! aku dah nak smpai umah kau baru kau nk bitau aku?? aku tunggu kau dr ptg tadi smate2 sbb kau ckp kau bley teman aku..kalau tak baik aku gerak balik BP sorg2 ptg tadi je..

and die bley igt yg ayah aku okay je?? which part of 'BAPAK AKU MASUK ER' yang kau x phm?? you always take things easy and now my patience already reached the limit..sbb kali ni dh melibatkn parent aku..kalau apa2 jdi kt ayah aku cmna??

aku call mama..tanya cmna..suara mama sedih giler coz die igtkn aku dh sampai kt bp and bley teman die...aku rasa cm nk nangis je coz tak dpt teman die kt hospital..kesian kat mama sape nk tlg die apa2? if die nak balik umah ke ape..mama xtau drive..die sorg2 je..aku rasa bersalah and sedih giler coz im da only one they got and i cant be there when they need me the most..kau ampunilah dosaku ini ya Allah.. ='(

aku bitau mama kalau die nak aku sgup balik mlm ni gak walaupun sorg..die ckp xpela..kau balik esok pagi je..nak wat cmna..suara die sedih je..menitis air mata aku time tu jugak...tp aku diam je xnk bagi mama dengar..aku nekad lepas sahur aku balik BP..

after that aku terus pegi jumpa min, hilal and daus kat castle..aku lepak dgn dorg jap..story kat dorg..thx korang sbb sudi dgr aku membebel2 td..thx a lot..thx jugak tuk izzah..che'are..kwn2 lain kat FB and my cousins...thx for all the prayers..hopefully everything turn out juz fine..insyaAllah...

tasha i dun hold any grudge towards u..but try to put urself in my shoe..then tell me how u feel..

Thank you..

2009-09-05T20:06:00.003+08:00

im happy with my life now..i really am..

thx to all my friends especially my besties..

u know who u are rite?

u guys really make my day..

i cant thank u guys enuff..huhu

now i can go to sleep and wake up da next day with a smile on my face..

i LOVE u guys..i really do...

and i MISS u guys A LOT..

cant wait to hang out together again..

we really had a great time dun we?

huhu..so cpat2 dtg kL okay??

1st September 2009

2009-09-01T13:48:00.002+08:00

a new month..

hope a new life a new beginning for me..

last month is quite a shitty month for me..

insyaAllah..

What should i do?

2009-08-27T12:10:00.003+08:00

I miss him so much..

I really do..
I still love him with all my heart even after what he did to me..
Am i stupid?
I really don't know what i should do..

I tried to forget him..
I tried to forget all the memories..
But it's getting harder and harder to forget..
I dreamed about him and us almost every night..

People told me time heals everything..
But how much longer i have to suffer?
How much longer i need to feel this pain?
My heart aches everytime i think about him...
My heart aches everytime i see him..

I try very hard not to cry..
Eventhough i feel like i really need a shoulder to cry on..
I try to keep myself strong..
I try very hard to move on and to hold on..
I try very hard to mend all the broken pieces of my heart..
And im trying very hard to keep myself together..

I miss the times we spent together..
I miss the moments we had together..
I miss the fights and all the arguments..
I miss the words he used to call me..
I miss the way he used to touch me..
I miss the way he used to hold me..
I miss the way he used to hug me..
I miss the way he used to kiss me..
I miss the way he used to love me..
I miss everything, every single thing about him..

If you ever..ever read this..trust me
I love you and only you..
There's no one else in my heart except you..
I really dont know what else to do to make you believe me..
But believe me you are my one and only..

Broken Hearted Girl

2009-08-26T10:14:00.004+08:00

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

tasha asked me to hear this song..so i listened to it on Youtube..this song really makes me wanna cry..the video clips the lyrics the melody..everything..i really hope dat i can spread my wings and fly away..away with him..but i noe it wont be happenning..because i am a broken hearted girl..and no one..no one will noe or understand what im feeling.. ='(

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2009-08-23T21:50:00.004+08:00

Selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat..semoga perjalanan selama sebulan ini membawa seribu rahmat dan kenikmatan dan menjadikan kita seorang mukmin yang lebih baik..

p/s: sempena bulan ramadhan ni..aku dah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri and i already promise my mum..i wanna stop from doing all the bad things dat ive done before..aku nk berhenti daripada buat semua perbuatan2 yang tak elok yang aku dh buat dulu..semoga Allah memperkenankan permintaan aku ni.. =)

Giving up? Absolutely NO

2009-08-16T15:28:00.004+08:00

“Pain is Temporary, Failure is Forever. A marathon is only 5 hours; the glory in completing it is more than 50 years. A Final Year Project is only 6 months; the portfolio is worth more than 60 years. A pregnancy is only 9 months; the lifespan of a life is 90 years. So if you’re in the midst of something painful now, it is just temporary. Giving up is forever.”

i got diz from my cousin's blog..everytime i feel like giving up..i read this..it keeps me motivated..this is really the hardest time for me..i almost give up but i know i gotta move on and keep myself strong..im a strong girl mentally..phisically and emotionally..i know that but
sometimes i just forgot bout it when emotions control me..this is my life im the one who controls it..life is real life is not a fairytale..things happen..only this time i didnt prepare for it..but in the future i know 1 thing for sure nothing else can hurt me..if it doesnt kill u..it makes u stronger..

Tak tau la aku..

2009-08-10T09:14:00.002+08:00

hmm..xtau la pe nk jd dgn aku ni..
aku ponteng keje ikut suke ati aku..
mls nk keje..
selera mkn xde..
asik xde mood je..
argh!! aku serabut..
bler bnda ni nk settle ni??
slagi x settle slagi tula aku cmni..
badan pn dah makin kurus..
dh la aku ni mmg kurus..
bler cmni makin bertambah2 aku kurus..
aku dh xtau nk watpe dh..
smpai bler aku nk cmni??
smpai bler aku kene tunggu??

2009-08-04T09:23:00.002+08:00

I HATE YOU.

FULL STOP.

Merindukanmu - d'Masiv

2009-07-14T11:10:00.003+08:00

lirik:
Saat aku tertawa diatas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Reff:
Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana
Dengarkanlah aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Back to reff ~~

I miss you..

2009-07-09T16:10:00.007+08:00

Time passes n passes n im still like this
wanting u in my arms not being able to have you
n i look for an exit to not look like this
Oh that far from me, your love is for me
n i cry n cry of knowing you are not here
with my lips, i want to kiss you
n i try n try to not feel like this
but its bad to know that you dont love me anymore

Look, how i am suffering
im burning from inside, to feel your love
don t do that to me, u know i love you
with all my heart

yeah i love you n i miss you, i want to see you next to me
huggin, holdin hands n be next to you
but my concious kills me of knowin you are not here
o baby why you gotta be doing this to me
it hurts me so much to know that you are not for me anymore
n that sweet lil body i shared with you
it hurts me so much to know that you are not for me anymore
i miss you
oh love (oh love) how it hurts me
to be without you
u dont love me

Look,(oh look) how i am suffering(ohh)
im burning from inside(n from inside), to feel your love(to feel your love)
don t do that to me, u know i love you(oh i love you)
with all my heart

Listen "Xtreme te extrano...."

Download for free "Xtreme te extrano...." mp3

p/s:

god..i miss him so much..when this feeling will fade away..the pain is unspeakable and unbearable..eventhough it was my fault but i never meant to hurt anybody..im sorry..im really sorry..i know im selfish..i always put myself first before anyone..im trying hard to change all my bad attitude and im regret for all the mistakes and bad things i've done but maybe it's too late for my apology now..but from the bottom of my heart..im really really really sorry.. ='(

i juz want u to know that my days and my life will never be the same without you..when u walked out of my life i felt like half of me was gone too..it broke my heart to see your disappointed and frustrated face when you knew bout all the lies i made and it broke my heart worst and burst me into tears when i know and i can imagine how u feel and how hard you are trying to go through this hard time alone..

im trying hard to holding on and to move on..im trying to ignore my own feelings and trying to keep myself busy..im trying hard not to shed a tear coz i know it's worthless..it was my fault after all..

Before i take that final breath...

2009-07-06T13:15:00.001+08:00

Before I Go

When My Life Has Reached Its
Very End And I Take That Final Breath
I Want To Know I’ve Left Behind,
Some Good Before My Death.

I Hope That In My Final Hour
In All Honesty I Can Say
That Somewhere In My Lifetime
I Have Brightened Someone’s Day.

That Maybe I Have Brought A Smile
To Someone Else’s Face
And Made One Moment A Little Sweeter
While They Dwelled Here In This Place.

Lord , Please Be My Reminder
And Whisper Softly In My Ear
To Be A Giver , Not A Taker
In The Years I Have Left Here.

Give To Me The Strength I Need
Open Up My Mind And My Soul
That I Might Show Sincere Compassion
And Love To Others Before I Go.

For If Not A Heart Be Touched By Me
And Not A Smile Was Left Behind
Then The Life That I am Blessed With
Will Have Been A Waste Of Time.

With All My Heart I Truly Hope
To Leave Something Here On Earth
That Touched Another, Made Them Smile
And Gave To My Life… Worth

Source : click here

If i wrote a note to God..

2009-07-06T12:58:00.005+08:00

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I’d ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on

If I wrote a note to God

Pain..

2009-06-29T09:45:00.001+08:00

This pain fills me
this pain of emptiness
a pain that doesn't go away
a pain of longing for
what I don't have
having what I don't want
a pain of the past
and also the future
a pain that nobody cares I have
a pain that I have every day
this pain fills me
from the soles of my feet
to the top of my head
I am filled
my soul is dim
the pain is a killer
it wants to take over
I fight
for what it is worth
I fight this pain
I just want this burden
to be gone
so I may be free
I just want this pain
that fills me
gone

a LONG weekend..

2009-06-29T09:29:00.003+08:00

well my last weekend is not da best weekend in my life..i could probably say da worst weekend for the year..i dun wanna say bout it or remember it..i juz wanna go wit da flow..i didnt eat anything yesterday..i felt hungry but i dun hav da appetite to eat..i've been crying all nite long till my eyes swell..i cant sleep tight coz of migrain..it was a perfect nite 4 me..isnt it? whatever..i dun have the mood to type or say anything anymore..daaa

Michael Jackson aka Mikaeel dies at age 50..

2009-06-26T12:52:00.005+08:00

his exclusive last photo..

OMG..i juz cant believe wut i heard..he dies at 2.26pm LA time..when i heard it i was like in shock..i cant say a thing..this is juz too surreal for me..i heard bout his comeback concert in london on 13th july 2009..all the tix are sold out already..eventho im not a big fan of him but i adore him..i listened to his songs since im a kid..i think i cant believe it coz i didnt hear any news bout him getting sick then suddenly his dead? wut?? i hope he died as a muslim as we all noe he converted to islam in 2008..may Allah bless and will always be with him..rest in peace MJ aka Mikaeel..u are truly a legend..u will always stays in our heart and will always be missed..

here is one of his song which is my all time favorite..

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

New update..

2009-06-25T11:16:00.002+08:00

well things are much better now only that i dunno wuts wrong wit me..im havin my flu every single day and i dunno y..i dun eat seafoods..i already cleaned up my room..so im tired of thinking why..maybe coz of the weather..sometimes hot sometimes cold..sometimes shiny sometimes rainy..when is this gonna end? i feel like tearing up my nose..please god help me eventho i noe im not a gud girl..i just cant stand having my flu every single day..*finger crossed*

akon concert is just around the corner..2nd july next thursday..i dunno whether i shud go or not..im really fuckin excited when i knew bout it..but now the feeling is slowly fading..maybe because there's a lot of obstacles preventing me from going..but who knows suddenly the excitement feeling arousing again..i might go.. =)

Betrayed and lied..

2009-06-12T09:02:00.005+08:00

finally im going back to my hometown today..yeay!! it's been a few weeks or a month maybe since my last footsteps in BP..im going back at 6.30pm..BP wait 4 me!! =)

i was so happy for the last few days but it ended yesterday..wanna noe why? i juz found out dat some person dat i trust my life with betrayed and lied to me..it's not a big deal actually but i juz cant accept it..i juz hate liars..juz tell me da truth whether it will hurt me or not than i get to noe by myself and it will hurt me more..dun u get it??

to someone : maybe u can accept me back when i lied to u but i was frank to u before u found out bout it..doesnt it hurt u more if u found out from someone else or by urself? answer me please..

and the best part was..i found out about it from someone else who thought i knew bout it but obviously i didnt..heh..and u still kept ur mouth shut and acted like u dun noe a shit bout it rite?? thx a lot! i trusted u and i told u da biggest secret of my life and yet diz is wut u did to me?? how am i suppose to trust u anymore??

im sory for evry single nasty words i said to u..but i juz cant accept people dat i love and trust my life with betrayed and lied to me..i juz cant..diz is da way i am whether u like it or not..

IF..if we ever get back together and be friends again..i wont trust u like i trusted u before..u can do whatever u like..hangout with your beloved friends wherever u want just dun..dun tell me anything..i dun wanna noe a damn shit bout it anymore..

END.

Sakit..

2009-06-08T13:11:00.001+08:00

sakit badan..

sakit belakang..

sakit perut..

sakit kepala..

nak baring.... =(

Please Take Me There.. =)

2009-06-08T12:24:00.000+08:00

Lyrics

I know a place that we can go to
A place where no one knows you
They won't know who we are
I know a place that we can run to
And do those things we want to
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there

I know a place that we've forgotten
A place we won't get caught in
They won't know who we are (they won't know, won't know)
I know a place where we can hide out
And turn our hearts inside out
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there
Ooohhh
Ooohhh
Ooohhh
Ooohhh

I know a place we'll be together
And stay this young forever
They won't know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there
Ooohhh

We can get away to a better place if you let me take you there
We can go there now cause every second counts
Girl just let me take you there
Take you there

p/s: i just love this song from plain white t's and really hope dat someone can take me 'there'.. =)

Im Sick... =(

2009-06-05T11:45:00.003+08:00

feeling sick..my body temperature seems to climb up and down for a few days now..
i dunno why..i took my medication but still feels da same..hurmm...
im feeling lightheaded..nausea..flu...arghh..
no mood for everything or anything..
just wanna lie down n rest... =(

I Love You...

2009-05-26T15:52:00.001+08:00

I love you enough to fight for you,
Compromise for you, and sacrifice
Myself for you if need be.

Enough to miss you incredibly when
We’re apart, no matter what length
Of time it’s for and regardless of
the distance.

Enough to believe in our relationship,
To stand by it through the worse
Of times, to have faith in our
Strength as couple, and to never
Give up on us.

Enough to spend the rest of my life
With you, be here for you when you
Need or want me, and never, ever
Want to leave you or live without you

I love you this much.

Cant Yet Accept

2009-05-26T15:43:00.001+08:00

I look at my reflection in the mirror
And I can see her laughing through her tears
All I can fake is one more smile
Underneath I am still in denial
I thought missing you was only for a day
I thought needing you would go away

Why do I see you in everything I do
Why does the sunshine remind me of you
Sometimes in my heart or when I hear your name
I think of the day I lost you, there's still so much pain
Things you said to me, I will never, ever forget.
Words like "love", "meant to be" just words, not heaven sent.

You always took my breath away
I can't believe you didn't stay
I understand you did what you had to do
But it seemed too soon for us to be through
Then the dreaded day when I made the wrong choice
I still can't fathom the tone in your voice
It feels as though my life is falling apart
You left my life but you stayed in my heart
Now I'm experiencing that my spirit is dying
You're gone forever, what's the use in trying?

Constantly people always change, believe me, I understand this.
In four months seems so strange, even you couldn't keep a promise.
You left without a backward glance
Not even giving me a second chance
You're shadow will have to do for now
Because that's all that you will allow

There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
When I don't think about why it was that we drifted so far away
I drown in days of remorse and remember
That awful day in early September
I can barely even make myself eat
Wondering if my life will ever again be complete
I try to be happy and not so depressed
Up until now my feelings I kept suppressed
Why can't I just get you out of my mind?

The joyous side of my heart I can no longer find
I pray that you'll come back, I wonder if I'm in your mind
So much I want to share with you; don't care if love is blind
As you drift away there's nothing I want more
Than to feel your love again, as I've never felt before
You came into my life as quickly as you left it
Every morning I dread that I will have to face it

Maybe we had moved too fast
And that's the main reason that we didn't last
I try to keep my tears bottled up deep inside
But sometimes they're so overwhelming; I just can't seem to hide
I often cry over cherished memories
All of my tears could cover the seas
How many more sorrow-filled days must go by
Until I learn the lesson: it does no good to cry

Worried I would breakup with you; this topic always seemed to come
Tides change, now you dumped me; it's forever set and done
The words are running out, there's nothing left to do
But to wait and to hope, that someday I'll get over you
So if sometimes it seems to you that I'm clinging to the past
It's mostly because I can't yet accept that our love didn't last

My Favorite Quotes and Poems!

2009-05-26T15:18:00.005+08:00

1.
I am Strong because i am Weak
I am Beautiful because i know my Flaws
I am a Lover because i am a Fighter
I am Fearless because i have been Afraid
I am Wise Because i have been Foolish
and
I can Laugh because I've known Sadness

2.
I wanna be the girl he's scared to lose.
The one where he cant walk away
from knowing she's mad at him.
The one he cant fall asleep without
my voice being the last thing he hears.
The one he cant live without.

3.
Im going to smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's all a dream,
and
pretend it's not hurting me.

4.
Imperfection is beauty,
madness is genius,
and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous
than absolute boring.
- Marilyn Monroe

5.
It's funny how 90 people
get the swine flu and everyone
wears face masks, but
millions get aids and
no one wants to wear condoms..

6.
Woman came from a man's rib,
not from his feet to be walked on,
not from his head to be superior,
but from the side to be equal.
Under the arm to be protected,
and
next to the heart to be loved.

7.
Its sad when people you know become people you knew.
When you can walk pass someone,
like they were never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now,
you can barely even look at them.
It's sad how time can change.

8.
Never say I love you
If you really don't care

Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there

Never hold my hand
If you are going to break my heart

Never say you are going to
If you don't plan to start

Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie

Never say hye
If you really mean good bye

If you really mean forever
Then say you will try

Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry.

If You Really Love A Woman...

2009-05-21T21:11:00.003+08:00

If you really love a woman
tell her that you love her
and show her that the feeling is real
care for her and be her shield
protect her and be sensitive for her
dont leave her alone bcoz she will be scared
and her tears will shed

if you really love a woman
feel what she feels
touch her tenderly
and warm her with your arms
shared your secrets and world with her

if you really love a woman
cherish her with everything you got
dont scold her dont scream or shout
be soft towards her
bcoz she can bruise easily

if you really love a woman
stay by her side
dont lie or cheat
give all of you to her
listen to her
coz thats all she needs
she needs a man who can take her hand
love her with every corner of your heart
thats all you have to do

if you really love a woman...

I am...

2009-05-19T09:38:00.001+08:00

I am...
that girl who when she says she is fine
she wants someone to look at her in the eyes and tell her
she's lying.

I am...
that girl who's smile can light up a room
who make anyone laugh and feel good
but deep inside
she's crying.

.
.
.
bleeding
.
.
.
faking
.
.
.
dying
.
.
.

I am...
that girl...
that girl...
who just wanted to be care and love
like everyone else

but I know...
things wont change

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for..

2009-05-06T10:32:00.003+08:00

1 . Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends
together.

KEEP READING

1 1. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug
her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus
it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something
being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*

THEY MIGHT DENY IT BUT THEY ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE THEM

26-don’t lie to HER.*
27-DON’T cheat on her.*
28-take her ANYWHERE she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at
work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you,
just be there so she’ll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER
BECAUSE, IT’S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*
34 . While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will
automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin
up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link
your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*
45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to
her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

you’ ll never know when she needs just a lil more love

p/s : no 45..sit on top of me? absolutely NO..berat laa...huhu

i just dont understand..

2009-05-02T23:18:00.005+08:00

i was juz surfing da net..went thru a few love quotes and i found 1 quote dat very interesting to me..it is...

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."

Mother Teresa

i juz dun understand why people nowadays are so judgmental? if you dunno them how can u judge them? by the way they look? by the way they behave? for me dat is so unfair..sometimes da way we behave or da way we look doesnt reflects who we are or da real us..da way we behave usually influenced by our surroundings or people around us..

have u ever heard of a quote 'never judge a book by its cover'? do u like to be judge? if u dun so dun judge others..why cant we treat everybody equally?

you hav to get to noe da person first before u can judge anything bout him/her..besides its her/his life..who da hell are u to judge whatever decisions dat he/she makes? for me u can juz try to advise but not to judge..

i never judge others i juz dun understand why people really loves to judge me..dun u hav other better things to do? do u really hav a lot of time juz to judge other people? i got a recommendation for u..why dun u use ur time dat u use to judge other people to think bout urself..reminisce every single thing dat u had done n then judge urself..did u make any mistakes? are u really a saint? if u ever make any mistakes n u really not a saint..i think u better stop judging other people n start rectify the shit out of urself..

so to anyone or anybody out there dat juz loves to judge me..i would like to say FUCK YOU! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THE REAL ME! SO YOU CAN JUST GO AND FUCK YOURSELF FUCKERS!

Depresi..

2009-04-29T10:49:00.003+08:00

hmm dh lame aku x update blog aku ni..byk yg aku nk critakan disini tp..setiap kali aku cube luahkn..otak aku x dpt nk memproses pkataan2 dan ayat2 yg patut aku taipkn..biala aku simpan sendri je ape yg aku rse..

aku sndri x phm n xtau ape yg aku rse..kdg2 happy..kdg2 sedih x semena2..kdg2 stress..kdg2 rse depresi..aku rse cm nk lari drpd idup aku skrg ni tp nk lari kemana? klu ikutkn aku..nk saje aku pergi tinggalkn semua yg aku ade skrg ni..pergi ke tmpt bru..menghirup udara baru..bkenalan dgn org yg baru..membuat aktiviti yg baru..semuanya baru la senang cerita..tp aku bkn anak orang senang..ayahku pesara kerajaan..mamaku pula surirumah sepenuh masa...kalau aku mau pergi ke tmpt yg baru kn byk kos yg diperlukn..jd biarla aku dgn hidupku skrg..

manusia hanya dpt melihat fizikal..aku tersnyum..aku ketawa..tp hatiku? ade sesiapa yg dpt melihat? dpt mendengar? mgkin entri ku kali ini agak emosional..tp aku cume nk luahkan ape yg aku rse..aku ttap seperti biasa..tetap riang ria ceria seperti kanak2 ribena..hehe

okla..klu rajin akan ku update lg blog ku ini..rasa kemalasan aku makin menjadi-jadi semenjak dua menjak ini...rasa cm xnk update2 lg pn ade..tp klu ade idea..aku update la ye..till then..bubye..

Chicken Wing..It's Dangerous??

2009-03-30T16:56:00.002+08:00

Avoid eating chicken wings frequently - ladies, especially; a true story...!
A friend of mine recently had a growth in her womb and she underwent an operation to remove it. The cyst removed was filled with a dark colored blood. She thought that she would be recovered after the surgery but she was terribly wrong.

A relapse occurred just a few months later. Distressed, she rushed down to her gynecologist for a consultation.
During her consultation, her doctor asked her a question that puzzled her. He ask if she was a frequent consumer of chicken wings and she replied yes wondering as to how, he knew of her eating habits. You see, the truth is in this modern day and age; chickens are injected with steroids to accelerate their growth so that the needs of this society can be met. This need is none other than the need for food..

Chickens that are injected with steroids are usually given the shot at the neck or the wings. Therefore, it is in these places that the highest concentration of steroids exists. These steroids have terrifying effects on the body as it accelerates growth.. It has an even more dangerous effect in the presence of female hormones, this leads to women being more prone to the growth of a cyst in the womb. Therefore, I advise the people out there to watch their diets and to lower their frequency of consuming chicken wings!

p/s : i got diz frm a fren of mine..thx 4 da email! =)

Taking People For Granted

2009-03-25T15:01:00.003+08:00

Every one of us, at some point or another, are guilty of believing that people we care about will always be there for us, and will always be available. But I'm afraid that it isn't necessarily so. Many of us have a tendency to put off things we want to say and do until tomorrow... sometimes we run out of tomorrows.

Our mothers, fathers, family, and friends are the core that we interact with everyday. We must always realize that there are no guarantees that each one of them will be available to us at will. By thinking that they will always be there, we can very easily take them for granted. The good deeds and contributions that they make to our lives can sometimes go by unnoticed. We casually can mutter a phrase like "Mom's always there", "Anne's a great friend", "Isn't Dad great?" like a programmed response with not a second thought to it.

Then one day, out of the blue, the phone doesn't ring, the letters stop coming...the person is gone. At that point, we begin to realize just how much we've lost. The space that's left in our lives, that was once full, is now empty. Regret starts creeping into our thoughts that maybe we didn't say enough to the person, while they were still here.

Even though it is very hard, and sometimes impossible to change the past, we can change the present. Look around....think about who in your life contributes to your development on a regular basis...and those that you, too, help. "Thank you" is not a very difficult phrase to say...but its meaning to a given person can be tremendous.

It's okay to tell people how much you need them, and how much you love them. Do it while they're here.

Take the time to love,

i feel very touched when i read this article..i miss my family especially my parent..i noe i hav a lot of sins towards them..u can say that i am selfish and self-centered dats because ive been raised as a single child..sometimes i pray dat god will take my life first rather than my parent because i noe my life will be so much harder without them..even tho i dun express my real feelings towards them..deep inside i really care n love them so damn much..there's nutting in da world means anything to me than my parent..hopefully i can still make things rite before its too late..

Mon chèr

2009-03-19T12:23:00.002+08:00

Parfois, je perd confiance en toi,
et pourtant je voudrai tant te croirecomprend moi,
malgré mon amour pour toi les entendre me fait douter pardonne moije cherche pas à te faire fuire,
voit au moins celle que tu veux suivre,
mais bébé non ne m'en veux pas si je cherche à me protegerpar le passé j'ai trop pleuré,
pourtant je fuis pour oublieraujourd'hui c'est à tes côtés que je veux avancer

What Is The Difference Between Love And Marriage?

2009-03-10T16:33:00.001+08:00

A student asked a teacher, “What is love?” The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”

The student went to the field, go through the first row, he saw one big wheat, but he wanders….maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he started to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.

So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed. The teacher told him, “…this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when you realized later on, you have already missed the person….”

“What is marriage then?” The student asked.

The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”

The student went back to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he picked one medium sized corn that he felt satisfied, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, “this time you bring back a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you can get…. this is marriage.”

I Don't Need Sex!

2009-03-10T14:57:00.002+08:00

this article makes me wanna laugh..i get it from http://sjsandteam.wordpress.com/page/3/..

here it is..

IHT REPORTS: POLITICAL TSUNAMI STILL MAKING WAVES IN MALAYSIA

Filed under: ARTICLE 07/03/2009, politics — sjsandteam @ 11:55
Tags: IHT REPORTS: POLITICAL TSUNAMI STILL MAKING WAVES IN MALAYSIA

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia: Malaysians called it a political tsunami when public discontent loosened the government’s five-decade grip on power in elections a year ago. The period since has been likened to a circus.

The National Front coalition remains in power, and main opposition leader Anwar Ibrahim has had to back off claims that he would topple the government within months. But normally predictable Malaysian politics is increasingly less so, as new cracks keep opening up in the ruling coalition.

The prime minister is being forced out by an open revolt in his own party. The National Front lost two special elections to fill parliamentary vacancies, an unimaginable result in the past. And the government’s attempt to oust an opposition-led state government has wound up in deadlock, with both sides claiming to be in charge.

The unprecedented weakness of the National Front has emboldened Malaysians to demand more rights in a country accustomed to virtual one-party rule since independence in 1957.

In last year’s March 8 election, the ruling coalition had its worst-ever showing, losing its longtime two-thirds majority in parliament and control of five of Malaysia’s 13 states. Malaysians realized for the first time that “there can be alternative governments … that the power to shape opinions and decisions comes from them,” said Tricia Yeoh, a political analyst who advises the opposition.

“This translates into a more demanding public, holding governments accountable to standards higher than they themselves would have imagined prior to March 8th, 2008,” she said. Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, who was widely blamed for the setback, resisted resignation calls for months before agreeing in October to step down around March 31.

“We have been in power for so long that some people (in the party) take it for granted. We are telling our people times have changed,” said International Trade and Industry Minister Muhyiddin Yassin, a vocal critic of Badawi. “It is a question of survival.”

The public appears lukewarm toward his successor, Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak. In a poll of 1,018 registered voters, 41 percent said he would do a good job, while 36 percent disagreed. The nationwide telephone survey by the Merdeka Center had a margin of error of 3.1 percentage points.

Razaleigh Hamzah, a respected ruling party official, said Najib’s ascent “will not magically set us on the path to restoration.”

Najib spearheaded campaigns for the two special elections, but the ruling coalition lost both. Much of the voter anger stems from the government’s empty pledges to curb corruption and cronyism, especially in awarding public contracts.

The ruling coalition has also failed to resolve racial and religious grievances of ethnic Indian and Chinese minorities in this Malay-majority nation, including alleged police killings of Indian suspects.

Fears that Malaysia may tumble into its first recession since 1998 have increased disquiet. The economy grew just 0.1 percent in the final three months of 2008, and 22,000 people have lost their jobs since October.

The National Front’s sole success was in wresting back control of the northern state of Perak, which it had lost in the March 2008 elections. But even that may have backfired.

It coaxed three lawmakers to leave the rival People’s Alliance coalition, tipping the balance in the Perak legislature in its favor. But instead of waiting for a vote by lawmakers, the National Front got the state’s sultan to appoint a new chief minister from its coalition. The move was condemned as unconstitutional, and the People’s Alliance and the national lawyers’ association are demanding elections to end the deadlock. The National Front has refused.

IT IS OUR TURN TO FUCK THE GOVERNMENT FOR HAVING SEX EVERYDAY

Sneezing..

2009-03-05T10:42:00.003+08:00

im not feeling very well today..keep sneezing non stop..my body temperature seems to climb up..hmm..today is my 1st day as an employee at the IPRM..nutting much..bored as usual..btw tonight's plan is cancel..juz because im not in da office this few days..so no one talked about it n they thot that it's cancel..i dun mind..i juz think dat i need it because im stress n not in a very good mood these days..no one knows about it except for someone dat i trust..well..i can just pray for good things to happen..*finger crossed* =)

Last Day Internship..

2009-02-27T15:59:00.004+08:00

today is my last day internship..nutting much going on coz diz whole week is da training week at the impiana hotel for the petronas PRs..we go there by turns..so we all cant gather together to decide wut we shud do as a farewell party since today is mine n imran's last day here..but luckily me,kyle n lau managed to go to impiana and had our lunch there..so we discussed and decided to go partying next thusday nite..heritage row here we come! <=== like i neva been there before..huhu..but i think it will be fun n i cant wait for dat nite to come..huhu actually i dun worry much for the farewell party coz i will continue works here at the IPRM..but its for imran la..coz he's so funny n we think dat we will miss him coz we got no one to laugh about..btw..im feeling not so good today..ive been sneezing non stop since morning..i think im having my flu again..well..till next time..daaa

Bored!

2009-02-19T10:38:00.003+08:00

wut a bad unlucky month diz is for me..my handphone damaged..i hav to reformat my laptop...all my work is in my laptop..im sooo fucked up and damn bored too!!! aaaaAaAaAaAaaAA!!!!!

My Name Is....

2009-02-11T11:22:00.003+08:00

N : love by many people
U : is loved by everyone
R : gives good hugs
U : is loved by everyone
L : very good kisser

A : has a smile to die for
L : very good kisser
I : best boyfriend or girlfriend
F : wild and crazy
A : has a smile to die for
H : likes someone

_______________________________________________

A : has a smile to die for
B : is a nerd at times
C : can kick ur butt
D : great friend
E : has beautiful eyes
F : wild and crazy
G : HOTT!
H : likes someone
I : best boyfriend or girlfriend
J : gorgeous
K : easy fallin in love with
L : very good kisser
M : can be funny and dumb at times
N : love by many people
O : has one of the best personalities ever
P : popular with all types of people
Q : nice butt
R : gives good hugs
S : very open - minded
T : makes people laugh
U : is loved by everyone
V : not judgmental
W : very romantic
X : never let people tell you what to do
Y : very hot
Z : makes dating fun

hehehe...

25 things bout me dat u shud noe

2009-02-04T11:25:00.003+08:00

tagged by ROSE CAMILIA..

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. i am 22 years old this year..many people thot dat im younger..huhu lucky me..

2. i hav mood swings all the time..ask my parent n my bf bout it..

3. i dun like people asking me too many questions..

4. i dun like people ask me to do da same thing more than twice..im not deaf ok..

5. im da queen of tears..if im happy i cry..if im sad i cry..if im mad i cry..if im stress i cry..

6. i love chocolate a lot!

7. i love sweet colours like pink..baby blue..light purple..

8. i love to do things last minute..it makes my brain works faster..haha

9. i am hard to understand..

10. i love my parent a lot eventho i dun express it to them..

11. dun mess wit da people i love or i'll hav ur head on my plate..

12. i cant wait to hav my own job..my own money..

13. i dun like relying on other people..i wanna be independent..

14. i miss my childhood's days..no problem..always happy..

15. i hate my college..

16. i eat a lot when im bored..

17. i cant eat when im stress..

18. im a sleeping beauty..wwuuhuuuu

19. i love dancing eventho i duno how to dance..haha

20. im restless if i hav unsolved problems..

21. nothing taste better than my mom's cook..

22. i want a pink suzuki swift!!!

23. i dun eat vegetables..in fact i hate da taste..

24. i love fruits but i rarely eat them..

25. i love children..they're adorable..like me..hahahaha

i want to tag :
anyone la..i dunno whom la coz i dun hav many blogger friends..hehe

Cancer Woman

2009-02-04T10:41:00.003+08:00

When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling
to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you
all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every
lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if it is not the case,
you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she
will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been
influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if
you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept
her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.

She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be
funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people
may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She
loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will
not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help
you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes
will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also
influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating
woman.

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough,
not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring
her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old
or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a
way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive.

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one
with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget
it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue
with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her
tears and start clean up her apartment normally.

She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the
way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is
your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in
law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women,
but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and
disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K.
This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She
can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with
no Love.

hehe..so true..