29 October 2009

Quarter life crisis?

i spoken to one of my friends bout my feelings and what im going through now and he told me im having the quarter life crisis..i only heard bout the mid life crisis..so i google bout it a lil bit and this is wut i found..its so true..



The Quarter-Life Crisis
by unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.



p/s: so wut do u think? when oh when this crisis will be over? huhu

23 October 2009

For Someone..

21 October 2009

im bored

I'm bored to death
Can that be even true
Well, I am still alive
I need something to do

I gotta find some interest
But I don't know what
I can't think of anything
My mind's door is shut


huhu ;p

13 October 2009

13 October 2009

Love Story theme song - piano version


Romance de Amor - piano version


this 2 songs really beautiful..i can cry listening to them..they really touch my heart..hope u guys enjoy it..

12 October 2009

is it because of my PMS?


hmm i dunno why..
suddenly i feel so stress and feel like crying..
is it because my pms is coming?
i hate this feeling..

i wanna run away from all this..
run away from all the problems..
from all the people..
i juz wanna be in a place where i can be alone..
yeah..i noe..i am all alone now..
i wanna be somewhere or anywhere else but not here..

i juz wanna be in a place like an island perhaps..
a beach or some place quite..
quite from all the noise..
where there will be only me..white sandy beach..
the sound of the waves..the moon and the stars..
with the accompany of a few loved ones wud be great..

i noe i am strong..
but the loneliness and the emptiness inside me is killing me slowly..
dear god..if u can hear me..
please send me someone from above who can love me as i am..
someone who will love me like i love him/her..
someone who can care for me like i care for him/her..
someone who understand me better than anyone else..
someone who will never judge me but will guide me thru all the way..
someone who will stand beside me and never put me aside..
someone who will love me eternally..

i noe it's easier said than done..
'i will always be there for you'
'you always have me'
i heard that a lot..
i noe i have a great circle of families..frens and a few close frens..
i noe u guys will always try to be there for me..
and i appreciate that..thank you..
but yeah..u see me smiling and laughing..
talking and giggling..
singing and dancing..
flirting and enjoying my life..
but do u noe deep down inside of me?
i think no one will ever noe..

i am not the type of girl who loves to tell anyone bout how i feel..
i am not the type of girl who loves to share..
i am exactly not the type of girl who u think i am..
so if u really think u noe me..
u better think twice..

i think its enuff for tonite..
i can go on babbling all nite long..
to all my families and friends..
i love you and thank you again..
only Allah will repay you..





In the making of another memory

dear friends,
how's your life?
it's been a while since I heard you laughed,
I, sometimes, dream of us so clearly,
in this making of 'memory'

our past days surely are beautiful,
the things keep our memory books so full.
the things we left unchanged are so many,
in this making of 'memory'

dear friends,
where have you been?
our day, our time,
do you still have that memory?
we live our lives now, differently.
we are, but for the making of another 'memory'

=)

Alone

Alone I drift away,
Alone I walk a thousand miles,
Alone I fall asleep,
Alone I stare at the sky,
Alone I sit under a tree,
Alone I cry.

Alone I dream of you,
Alone I hope and pray,
to God who is oh so merciful and powerful
to let me find my way.

Alone I drift away,
Alone I live today,
and alone I'll die someday.

Life

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks

I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

08 October 2009

Sorry

my mind seems been running out of words nowadays..
so im using songs and lyrics to express my feelings..
hope u guys understand it..
i will write something when my brain is fully functioning..
well..
just for the info..

MY LIFE'S BEEN GREAT (^_^)

Feel



Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I�ve been given.

I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don�t understand.

(chorus)
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
�cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I don�t wanna die,
But I ain�t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I�m preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death,
That�s why I keep on running.
Before I�ve arrived, I can see myself coming.

(chorus)
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
�cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

And I need to feel, real love
And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough.

(instrumental)

(chorus)
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in,
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after
There�s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it�s a real big place.

(instrumental)

Come and hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living,
Not sure I understand,
This role I�ve been given

Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.

06 October 2009

Rumors



Saturday, stepping into the club
The music made me wanna tell the DJ, turn it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop movin' to the sound

But, I can tell that you're watching me
And your probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?

Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do?
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun, I'm gonna live my life
(But not the way that you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures, don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to the beat like
(What?)

I gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just need a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?

Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do?
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down?
I'm only having fun, I'm gonna live my life
(But not the way that you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind
(My mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time
(Good time)

I'm tired of rumors, rumors
Followed, followed, followed, followed, followed, followed
What they?
(Followed me?)
Why can't they, they, they, they, they
They let me live?
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is


p/s:to all the haters out there..hahahaha

Live like you're dying



One of these days youll be
under the covers youll be
under the table and youll realize
all of your days are numbered;
all of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.
So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for more.
no no

Chorus 1:
Take every moment; you know that you own them.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

Give me a reason
to fight the feeling
that theres nothing here for me.
Cause none of its easy,
I know it wasnt meant to be.
I know its all up to me x2.
So what am I gonna do with my time?
oh

Chorus 2:
Ill take every moment, I know that I own them.
Its all up to you to do whatever you choose.

Chorus 3:
Live like youre dying and never stop trying.
Its all you can do, use whats been given to you.

All of the moments you didnt notice;
gone in the blink of an eye.
All of the feelings you couldnt feel
no matter how you try.
oh oh


p/s:love the song..live your life to the fullest or 1 day you might regret and think how u wish u wud have done dat thing... =)