Doesn't mean anything..

Used to dream bout being a millionaire, without a care
But if I'm seeing my dreams and you aren't there
Cause it's over, that just won't be fair, darling
Rather be a poor woman living on the street, no food to eat
Cause I don't want no pie if I have to cry
Cause it's over when you say goodbye

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

Now I see myself through different eyes, it's no surprise
Being alone would make you realize
When it's over, all in love is fair
I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

I know I push you away
What can I do that will say how I love
Take these material things
They don't mean nothing
It's you that I want

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone
(I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda)

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone


p/s : i love da way he sings this song..makes me wanna cry..huhu

why u'r still single?

Lovin' it

i always cut my hair short but last friday

i trimmed my hair and rebond it...

my hair is quite long now..

trying something new..

check out my new pic at my fb.. =)

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri..semoga aidilfitri kali ini lebih baik dr yg sebelumnya..harap diampunkan segala salah dan silap..kita manusia tidak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan..

berhati-hati ketika memandu..ingatlah family tersayang... =)

16 September 2009

Yes..

you might give me all the happiness in this world..

in this life..

but..

can you give me final peace in the end?

15 September 2009

well my dad already been discharge from da hospital last saturday..

he's getting better..thank you all..

im deleting some people who used to be my friends

but now so called my haters from my facebook..

eventhough u guys really make me famous

and i appreciate it very much..

but i dun need u in my life..

thanks for all the hardwork dat u've done to make me famous..

all the thinking and doing things..

thanks..only Allah will repay u.. =)

11 September 2009

ayah semakin sembuh..alhamdullilah..thx to all my friends and families for da supports and prayers..walaupun ayah nampak uzur dan semakin kurus tp keadaannya dah bertambah baik..semalam ayah dah boleh minum air dan sudah mula membuang air besar..arini dia sudah boleh makan..cuma dari semalam ayah mcm kna diarrhea..mungkin sbb ubat yg diberikan..lgpun cuaca di bp mmg panas betul..

actually ayah kna operate mlm isnin hari tu tp mama n ayah xnk bgtau aku sbb xnk aku drive sorg2 mlm..kesian mama kne jaga and tgu ayah operate sorg2..msti die sedih and rsa tak tertanggung..hmm terharu aku sbb time2 ayah saket cmtu pn still lg sempat pkir psal aku..sbnrnya ayah kna gastrik..gas tu dah burst up so kna operate takleh tgu lg..kata mama ayah msuk bilik operation around 1am dan keluar dalam 5am cmtu..

hari slasa tu aku smpai hosp around 9am something..aku msuk2 wad ayah baru je sedar..sedih aku tgk keadaan ayah..jarum bercucuk sana cni..kna pkai neb..kne tebuk lubang kat tepi pinggang utk kluarkn darah kotor..and de tube dimsukkn kt idung dia tuk keluarkan lendir2 maybe dari paru2..ayah kna operate kat perut..panjang juga kat tengah2 dari area bwh dada smpai la kt pusat..aku x pnah nmpk ayah kurus and saket cmni..sblm ni ayah nmpk sehat je bdn pn tough..takda la nmpk cm org umur 57 thn..tp skrg ayah nmpk uzur..sdey je aku rsa..aku tgk mata mama merah je maybe tahan nangis..aku pn tahan je air mata aku..xnak la nmpk aku nangis nnt mama msti lg sdey..i got to be strong for her..

aku pun tak sangka jaga orang sakit penat cmni..keje aku ape lg jadi driver laa..bawa and anta mama ke hospital..beli barang2 keperluan ayah..umah..mkn utk berbuka dan sebagainya..ganti mama jaga ayah bler mama blk umah..penat betul..dgn cuaca kat bp yg btul2 pnas..migrain kepala aku dibuatnya..tidur pn x ckup..badan kaki sume rsa saket2 and lemah..maklum lah bulan puasa..time buka jela bley recharge tenaga..

hari ahad aku akn blik kl semula..hopefully before that ayah dah klua hospital..takda la aku risau sgt coz jiran2 ada..ari jumaat depan bru aku blk bp semula..

ayah..semoga cepat sembuh..nanti bleh klua hospital..tak lama lg dh boleh minum and makan cm biasa..mesti ayah rasa nk mkn mcm2 kan..huhu nurul sentiasa doakan agar ayah cepat sembuh and tak saket2 lg.. =)

special thx to my cousin rose..my friends izzah..che'are..eliya..nina..min and syafiq for always trying to be there for me when i need someone..thx for the support..thx sbb slalu tnya bout my dad..i cant thx u guys enuff..all i can say is i LOVE u guys and i will try my best to be there for u one day when u need someone or me..thx again.. =)

Ayah..semoga cepat sembuh..

around 5 something dpt call from mama ckp ayah masuk hospital emergency room..i was shocked..all i can asked was "why?" mama bitau ayah balik kerja then dia start sakit perut..muntah2 smpai badan lemah giler and sampai die ckp die mmg btul2 dah tak tahan sakit..my neighbour pak enal tlg antakan ayah n mama to the hospital..then aku bitau mama once doktor dh bitau wuts wrong with him tell me..aku try balik bp..

aku xtau nk watpe aku trus call tasha..tanye if aku nk blk BP bleh atau tak die teman aku..she said okay juz tell her wut time..aku ajak die coz aku tau skrg ni cuma die je kwn aku yg tak study and still not working and i thot she was my best + close fren..

so i wait n wait n wait till 6pm something still no words from mama..i called her..she said doktor bru lpas x-ray and he still in the ER..aku rasa tak sedap hati..aku trus call tasha bitau after buka gerak terus coz ayah aku still lg dlm ER...die ckp okay..rite now die kat saloon after buka she'll sms me..

aku risau sgt coz ayah tak pernah saket smpai cmni..die tak pernah masuk hospital..aku takut aku nangis je bila tgk die esok dgn jarum bercucuk sana sini..aku tak smpai hati..kalau boleh biar aku gnti tmpt die..bia aku yg saket..aku syg ayah dgn mama sgt2..smpai aku doa bia tuhan cabut dlu nyawa aku dari dorang..aku tak sanggup hilang dorang..they're my EVERYTHING..

nearly 8 tasha sms bitau die baru nk makan..kedai sume full...aku ckp okay but tlg cpat sket..pjalanan jauh bknnye sekejap..aku xnk smpai mlm2 sgt..she said okay..nearly 9pm die sms aku ckp dah settle makan lg 10mins aku leh gerak pegi rumah die..aku pn gerak la pegi umah die..bila aku dah sampai kat OU..dah nak sampai kat umah die baru die bitau aku yg bapak die tak bagi die teman aku..im like SO FUCKING MAD MANNN!! aku dah nak smpai umah kau baru kau nk bitau aku?? aku tunggu kau dr ptg tadi smate2 sbb kau ckp kau bley teman aku..kalau tak baik aku gerak balik BP sorg2 ptg tadi je..

and die bley igt yg ayah aku okay je?? which part of 'BAPAK AKU MASUK ER' yang kau x phm?? you always take things easy and now my patience already reached the limit..sbb kali ni dh melibatkn parent aku..kalau apa2 jdi kt ayah aku cmna??

aku call mama..tanya cmna..suara mama sedih giler coz die igtkn aku dh sampai kt bp and bley teman die...aku rasa cm nk nangis je coz tak dpt teman die kt hospital..kesian kat mama sape nk tlg die apa2? if die nak balik umah ke ape..mama xtau drive..die sorg2 je..aku rasa bersalah and sedih giler coz im da only one they got and i cant be there when they need me the most..kau ampunilah dosaku ini ya Allah.. ='(

aku bitau mama kalau die nak aku sgup balik mlm ni gak walaupun sorg..die ckp xpela..kau balik esok pagi je..nak wat cmna..suara die sedih je..menitis air mata aku time tu jugak...tp aku diam je xnk bagi mama dengar..aku nekad lepas sahur aku balik BP..

after that aku terus pegi jumpa min, hilal and daus kat castle..aku lepak dgn dorg jap..story kat dorg..thx korang sbb sudi dgr aku membebel2 td..thx a lot..thx jugak tuk izzah..che'are..kwn2 lain kat FB and my cousins...thx for all the prayers..hopefully everything turn out juz fine..insyaAllah...

tasha i dun hold any grudge towards u..but try to put urself in my shoe..then tell me how u feel..

Thank you..

im happy with my life now..i really am..

thx to all my friends especially my besties..

u know who u are rite?

u guys really make my day..

i cant thank u guys enuff..huhu

now i can go to sleep and wake up da next day with a smile on my face..

i LOVE u guys..i really do...

and i MISS u guys A LOT..

cant wait to hang out together again..

we really had a great time dun we?

huhu..so cpat2 dtg kL okay??

1st September 2009

a new month..

hope a new life a new beginning for me..

last month is quite a shitty month for me..

insyaAllah..