What should i do?

I miss him so much..

I really do..
I still love him with all my heart even after what he did to me..
Am i stupid?
I really don't know what i should do..

I tried to forget him..
I tried to forget all the memories..
But it's getting harder and harder to forget..
I dreamed about him and us almost every night..

People told me time heals everything..
But how much longer i have to suffer?
How much longer i need to feel this pain?
My heart aches everytime i think about him...
My heart aches everytime i see him..

I try very hard not to cry..
Eventhough i feel like i really need a shoulder to cry on..
I try to keep myself strong..
I try very hard to move on and to hold on..
I try very hard to mend all the broken pieces of my heart..
And im trying very hard to keep myself together..

I miss the times we spent together..
I miss the moments we had together..
I miss the fights and all the arguments..
I miss the words he used to call me..
I miss the way he used to touch me..
I miss the way he used to hold me..
I miss the way he used to hug me..
I miss the way he used to kiss me..
I miss the way he used to love me..
I miss everything, every single thing about him..

If you ever..ever read this..trust me
I love you and only you..
There's no one else in my heart except you..
I really dont know what else to do to make you believe me..
But believe me you are my one and only..

Broken Hearted Girl

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl



tasha asked me to hear this song..so i listened to it on Youtube..this song really makes me wanna cry..the video clips the lyrics the melody..everything..i really hope dat i can spread my wings and fly away..away with him..but i noe it wont be happenning..because i am a broken hearted girl..and no one..no one will noe or understand what im feeling.. ='(

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat..semoga perjalanan selama sebulan ini membawa seribu rahmat dan kenikmatan dan menjadikan kita seorang mukmin yang lebih baik..


p/s: sempena bulan ramadhan ni..aku dah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri and i already promise my mum..i wanna stop from doing all the bad things dat ive done before..aku nk berhenti daripada buat semua perbuatan2 yang tak elok yang aku dh buat dulu..semoga Allah memperkenankan permintaan aku ni.. =)

Giving up? Absolutely NO

“Pain is Temporary, Failure is Forever. A marathon is only 5 hours; the glory in completing it is more than 50 years. A Final Year Project is only 6 months; the portfolio is worth more than 60 years. A pregnancy is only 9 months; the lifespan of a life is 90 years. So if you’re in the midst of something painful now, it is just temporary. Giving up is forever.”

i got diz from my cousin's blog..everytime i feel like giving up..i read this..it keeps me motivated..this is really the hardest time for me..i almost give up but i know i gotta move on and keep myself strong..im a strong girl mentally..phisically and emotionally..i know that but
sometimes i just forgot bout it when emotions control me..this is my life im the one who controls it..life is real life is not a fairytale..things happen..only this time i didnt prepare for it..but in the future i know 1 thing for sure nothing else can hurt me..if it doesnt kill u..it makes u stronger..

Tak tau la aku..

hmm..xtau la pe nk jd dgn aku ni..
aku ponteng keje ikut suke ati aku..
mls nk keje..
selera mkn xde..
asik xde mood je..
argh!! aku serabut..
bler bnda ni nk settle ni??
slagi x settle slagi tula aku cmni..
badan pn dah makin kurus..
dh la aku ni mmg kurus..
bler cmni makin bertambah2 aku kurus..
aku dh xtau nk watpe dh..
smpai bler aku nk cmni??
smpai bler aku kene tunggu??

I HATE YOU.

FULL STOP.